Monday, September 8, 2008

I want what I want...

and then I don’t. It is a terrible flaw. I think I want something. I dream about having it. Plan what I will do once I have it. And then I get it and it loses some of its appeal. I start second-guessing my decision and need to have it (I’m talking about big things here – like new furniture - new cars – new jobs - you know stuff like that). Sure I end up making peace with it all but there is that limbo period where I just don’t know if I really want what I want at all. My life – it’s so complicated :-)

Sometimes, when I’m lucky and the rose colored glasses are safely in the drawer, I actually realize that I don’t want what I think I want before I have a chance to not want it. For instance there is this house that I thought I wanted. I heard that it might be for sale. I waited and waited for it to go on the market and then the other day I was looking at real estate (hey, it’s a hobby) and there it was – THE HOUSE - on the market. I looked at the house, studied all the on-line pictures and then in less than five minutes I realized I don’t want this house at all. It really isn’t my style, it’s choppy, and fussy, and old-fashioned and OVER-PRICED. Actually part of the problem with the house – it isn’t what it used to be when I first noticed the house. It used to be on a bigger piece of land (which has since been divided and developed) and it was painted all white so it looked like a wedding cake (‘cuz really I’m a romantic for anything wedding related). But now there are new houses encroaching on its borders and it is wearing a paint job that may be appealing to some but is wayyyy to fussy for me. So the house today - not so much – I feel like the house has become a pretentious replica of itself. It has lost its simple elegance. So the house - I just don't want it anymore. Believe me when I say the HOTY is very relieved to hear that the house has officially been taken off my list of wants but there are others and they are still contenders :-)

TTFN...

2 comments:

Wendy said...

I can't see you in that house at all! Zumbrota is no place for a gal like you...There are some great properties available in Oronoco! Just your style...and only five minutes from where you live now!

Amy said...

I didn't even need to look at which house it was. :-) But if that is a seating/dressing area off of the master bedroom...well, and you would be so close to me. But I agree, WAY OVERPRICED!