Monday, December 28, 2009

2010 - is this the year...

Is this the year I finally get my act together and start taking control of my life. Is this the year I stop procrastinating and start making choices that help me? Is this the year I stop acting like a spoiled child and enter the adult world? Is this the year I really become the wife and mother and daughter and sister and friend I know I should be? Is this the year???

I've spent several nights not sleeping and thinking over the past week and what I think is I am not really all that crazy about the person that I am today. I feel like my life is out of control. That I am just passively watching the days pass by instead of making choices and living. That I don't give the love and respect to the people who deserve it. That I am selfish and spend entirely too much time thinking about myself instead of the people around me. Seriously, I guess you could just say I'm sick of myself. But again, is this just a passing phase where my actions are in the forefront of my consciousness and by this time next week I will have forgotten what kind of person I think I am? Or is this the year that I will actually make changes and get out of my comfort zone, confront demons and live? I know what I want to happen, just not so sure of the action plan...

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

SEVENTEEN...

My baby is seventeen. If that isn't something to shout from the rooftops I don't know what is. Alex had a fabulous birthday. He smiled more today than any other day this whole year. Teenage angst - ugh. I noticed he got a little teary eyed while we sang happy birthday to him but he quickly brushed away the tears with the back of his hand I pretended I didn't see it. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE this boy - even on his worst door slamming, big attitude days I'll keep him. If you are new to this blog and want to know more about what a gift Alex is you can read here: All About Alex

So now the kids are all snug in their sleeping bags underneath the tree (their yearly tradition), I'm quietly clicking on the laptop, Christmas music is quietly playing on the radio and the snow is softly falling outside. I really hate to leave this bucolic setting but the laundry and last minute wrapping awaits.

Merry Merry Merry Christmas to you and yours. May the love and blessings of the season fall unto you and may all your most heartfelt prayers be answered (and that my friends is as religious as I get - it's a private thing).

Good night. Sleep tight...

Monday, December 21, 2009

The time is near...

It is almost time for the celebrations of the season to begin. It is hard to believe that another year has almost come to pass even with the tumultuous changes and possible new beginnings (which I didn't ask for). Although my job will soon be changing I'm still in denial. Let's hope that the new year will bring renewed enthusiasm and a dose of reality (yes, I do deal in reality - at least some of the time).

So before I go much further I want to say - "Oh My Gosh I am weepy today". You have been forewarned. Maybe it is melancholy Christmas music (seriously, if I hear that shoe song one more time I'm going to forever resign myself to crying all through Christmas). Okay, so now that is out of the way, moving on...

The tree is starting to fill out with presents. Have I ever mentioned how much I love our Christmas tree. Every year I think I should have a party just so I can show off my tree (hey, there are just some things that I can't be modest about). So now that I have a set a great big expectation for everyone about my tree you can now come over and be disappointed :-) It's not 9 feet tall and it isn't movie perfect but I still think it is pretty.

Okay, I just realized I have more shopping to do.

Merry Christmas to all - oh and don't hold your breath waiting for our Christmas card - there may be a slight delay.

TTFN...

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I really didn't mean it...

I really didn't mean to let this blog thing kind of drift off into obscurity. It's just that life - well it's been busy. I know I know we are all busy - but really it's true. I've been busy. I'll try to be better in the New Year - really I will.

Today is the HotY's birthday. Another 12 months, another year older, and STILL not yet 40. Come on man, grow up already, you're making me feel old! The perils of marrying a younger man - even though the husband gets older he'll never be older than his wife - consider yourself warned.

So just a quick post with some fabulous advice. I'll write more SOON. Really, it will be soon. REALLY!

TTFN...

The HotY thinks I may overuse Really a little too much. REALLY??????

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

The DOG stays - at least for now...

Autumn survived her stay at the kennel. We brought her home on Saturday - after doggie proofing of course (doors closed, toys off the floor, butter in the refrigerator...). So far so good. She and I had a moment on Sunday but since then things have been good. Really good, today I was having a very bad morning and Ms. Autumn would not leave my side. She just kept gazing at me with her chocolate brown eyes and giving my hand the head nudge for just a few more pets. No nipping, no begging to play fetch, no trying to steal the kleenexs from the box behind me - just simple dog love and companionship. Callie, the perfect dog, was never one for these quiet moments - she was a very reserved dog - she usually kept her distance. So see Autumn - Callie wasn't better than you at EVERYTHING (don't think I don't know that when we say Callie all you hear is "MARCIA MARCIA MARCIA"

TTFN...