Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Forty Something...

is that too old to run away? I think the last time I felt like running away I was 16 and the time before that I was 6 (my mom packed my suitcase for me - I didn't go anywhere - just sat on the stairs and cried because my mom packed my suitcase for me...). But seriously, this time I wouldn't be gone for a long time, probably just a week. Wouldn't that be nice? A week. Alone. I'd pack my own suitcase.

The sad thing is I am saying this during Christmas - I love Christmas - but lately I have been so so so - short - with everyone and not so loving Christmas. All I want to do is run away. Too many shoppers in the mall - get me out of here. Too much fighting between my kids - Calgon take me away. Too many worries about work - is it time to go home yet? I just want to avoid everything. I'm not the only one - there are others - right? Man I hope so otherwise I am going to feel like a really crummy person.

So although not exactly an efficient coping mechanism it is where I am at right now. It isn't exactly the spirit and the meaning of the season :-( but I haven't given up hope that I'll come around. I mean maybe all I need is a trip to look at Christmas lights, or a holiday concert, or a present wrapping extravaganza, or a visit with my friend Wendy - she's always good for my soul. That might just do the trick. If not maybe I'll plan a little get away for myself after the first of the year. I'm pretty sure my family could manage for a week (but I do feel selfish for saying that) I'll have to give it some more thought. In the meantime I'll try to keep the fight or flight vibes at bay.

Oh and while we are talking about it (fine, I'm talking - you're listening) did you know there are a TON of songs that are titled Runaway? Really, there's this Runaway, and this Runaway, and this Runaway, and my favorite Runaway. Man with all these songs about running away I MUST not be the only one who feels this way now and then - so at least I've got that going for me :-).

TTFN... If you don't hear from me in a while - well I've run away - but it will just be a short trip.

5 comments:

Wendy said...

Yes please...a visit with your friend Wendy...she could use a little soul lifting herself! Maybe you and I could spend the holiday together...drinking a lot of wine...and eating every damn thing I want without feeling the least bit guilty for doing it! I'll call you tomorrow...I promise...

Shirley said...

HUGS, sweetie.

I don't think that you're alone but in our section of the world it's something to do with all the rain and lack of sun and they tell you to get those mood lights. LOL!

Ann said...

Nope, not alone Angie. This "Forty Something" is struggling with a case of "holiday blues" too...

Maija said...

I know exactly how you feel! I think that's one of the reasons why I travel to so many art retreats! I always come back refreshed. Of course, my children are older than yours so it's easier. Consider spending a night in a nice local hotel- order room service and a movie! It will do wonders for you!!

ChichiBoulie said...

I think we all need to runaway every once in a while. I'm at that point now, in fact! But I have a little "runaway" planned for spring with a very dear friend. We're going to meet in Antwerp, halfway between my home and hers. Just us 2. No husbands. No children!

I hope you get some alone time!

(ps - thank you for the link)