Crabby Deal

Okay, so...

2012-02-12T22:20:00.001-06:00

I'm kind of thinking of shutting down this blog. I know I've said this before but really I just don't know. As you can tell I have not had much to say lately and I think blogs are kind of going to the way-side. I'm not sure what to do. I like to write but sometimes I think I should just leave it in a journal. I'll think about it more tomorrow.

So I'm in the middle of watching the Grammy's. Yes, it is really tragic that Whitney Houston has died (I kind of feel like some of my youth died too) and Jennifer Hudson was fabulous but the performance that really tugged at my heartstrings - Glen Campbell (why yes I do know all the words to Rhinestone Cowboy. I KNOW. Who would have guessed. But hearing him sing) made me remember my life as a little girl. There are two shows I remember my parents watching - The Glen Campbell Show and the, oh shoot I can't think of his name now, the guy from England. Tom Jones - so glad I got it I'd hate to have been up all night trying to remember his name. Anyway, I remember my parents watching both of those shows (I think my mom may have had a little crush on both of them - I remember my dad having sideburns for awhile - I'm just saying...). So Glen tugged at my heartstrings which made me want to hear more and that took me to YouTube of course and there I found that Wichita Lineman song. I like that song, I forgot I liked it. (I'm listening to James Taylor sing it right now - good but not as good as Glen Campbell). So there you go. Another secret revealed - Glen Campbell and Tom Jones make me remember being a little girl in our craftsman bungalow with the little telephone cubby, sun porch and flower painted bathtub (it was the 70's you know).

TTFN...

Hello It's Me...

2012-02-04T19:39:00.000-06:00

I know it's been a long long while. Nothing's going on and everything is fine. I just can't think of anything to say. (feel free to hum along if you knowthe song...).

Yep, it's been awhile. Nothing's happened and everything has happened - isn't that life. Let's see if I can remember the highlights of the last couple of months over the next few days.

Christmas was good. Santa got an A in everyone's book.

That's it for today. What can I say - there has been nothing going on and everything going on...

TTFN

So let's discuss...

2012-01-17T09:25:00.000-06:00

Who is watching The Bachelor? Who thinks it is the most pathetic, psychotic Bachelor yet? I mean skiing the streets of San Francisco - really? For those of you who may not have witnessed this train wreck Benny Boy took all his little bachelor bunnies loaded down with ski equipment up a hill in San Francisco. Once at the top of the hill the found an artificial snow filled ski run. Really? Yes really, but that is not the best (worst) part - soon Ben's Bunnies were stripping down to their bikinis and leg warmers. REALLY? YES REALLY! I was embarrassed for them just watching. Seriously, it was so sad and pathetic I'm tempted to stop watching. And I'm not a big Ben fan either so I have no idea why I am watching. I guess I just don't want to take a chance I might miss something like downhill skiing in the streets of San Francisco. Oh Lord...

TTFN.

It's been awhile...

2012-01-15T20:48:00.000-06:00

sorry, life has gotten in the way. And really tonight I don't have a lot to say so I'll just leave you with some pictures of my Glitter Me! creations used by a client at two different events. Thanks to Ronie for the pictures. Seriously, I keep telling you all I meet the nicest people. I love fabulous clients!

Nineteen!

2011-12-23T22:52:00.001-06:00

It is hard to believe Alex is celebrating his 19th birthday today. I just had a life realization moment - I HAVE A NINETEEN YEAR OLD ! Man if that doesn't make me feel ancient nothing can.

It was a great day for him and he is now planning to sleep upstairs on the couch while his sisters sleep under the tree because they were too sad to sleep there without him since that is their usual tradition, It makes me a little sad too (that he is starting to outgrown some of these traditions).

So happy birthday to Alex - my very own 19 year old!

TTFN...

I'm still here...

2011-12-21T22:13:00.001-06:00

I don't think Blogger wants me to be here as I can't sign into my account as I used to. I have no idea why - I think it has something to do with gmail - which I don't really use - but that is another problem for another day.

We trimmed the tree the weekend after Thanksgiving but I am just getting around to posting the pictures tonight. Sorry, I've been slow like that lately (I won't even talk about those Christmas cards I vowed I'd be sending this year...). So here you go - pictures. I promise to write more in the new year. I'm hoping things will be less crazy and more interesting ;-)

I'm thankful...

2011-11-23T13:50:00.000-06:00

my house is nearly clean
my mom is making the turkey and pies and stuffing for Thanksgiving Dinner
my family will begin arriving this afternoon for the turkey day festivities
I can sleep in a little bit tomorrow (see that note about my mom making the turkey, stuffing...)
Syd was a great little helper today and Lauren was the official decorator for the holiday
Alex got a haircut and the HotY will be home at 3:00

I'm not thankful for
the gallon of milk I broke on the garage floor
the Pledge that accidentally got sprayed on the kitchen floor
and the washer that broke last night
but all in all there is more good than bad.
For that I am especially thankful.

Happy Thanksgiving!

TTFN...

Did I mention I'm glad to be here?

2011-11-14T22:22:00.000-06:00

I just remembered I totally forgot to tell you about this - I don't know how I forgot but I did. Earlier in October I attended a funeral so I was dressed up and wearing heels. I stopped at the store on my way home and had a couple bags of stuff. When I walked in the door, standing in front of the stairs, I tried to kick-off my shoes without putting my sacks down and then it happened (fine you know what happened but let me tell you anyway). I lost my balance, I tried to catch myself but it was too late. I went down the stairs backwards. At the bottom my head hit the floor, my legs flipped over my head and my neck gave a horrendous crack then my head hit the floor again, this time so hard my cotacts popped out. I KNOW! I layed there for just a second making sure I could move my neck and slowly stood up. Other than rug burns on my face and bruises along the back of my body I was uninjured. It could have been bad - it could have been really bad, especially since there was no one home but the pets (some help they would have been - although to Autumn's credit she did touch even one thing that came out of the bags when they went flying).. Once the HotY and kids did get home I told him the story and then subsequently during the night I would remind him that I could have died just so he would appreciate me being around even more than usual :-) But it really did scare me. AND I totally believe that my Guardian Angel was watching over me - I'm really thankful she was around!

Okay that's it. You know I've had so many close-calls I obviously have not done whatever it is I have been set on this earth to do. Darn I wish someone would clue me in about that - but maybe it's better I don't know - you never know when my luck may run out!

TTFN...

Trick or Treat...

2011-10-31T20:32:00.000-05:00

The night was perfect, we walked a long way and they came home with full buckets. A success all the way around.

THE holiday devoted to candy has come to an end, the porch light is off - let the Christmas music begin :-)

Here are pictures of the Scarecrow and Bat Girl:

We have communication problems...

2011-10-18T20:39:00.000-05:00

or my family does not deal well with change.

Today I had a meeting at the girls' school and I knew I would be there until release time so, I sent an email to the HotY stating not to stop to pick up the girls today since I would be at school. When I got to the school I asked the school secretary to let the girls' teacher know they should not go into the pick-up line since I would be at school and could wait for them near the office. Great. Bases covered.

Fast forward 90 minutes - announcements are made and Lauren & Syd are instructed to come to the office for pick-up. A few minutes later in walks the HotY. What are you doing here we each asked? Well apparently he did not get my email. I got the situation cleared up after at least 2 explanations and he went on his way. Next came the girls. "Mom, why are you here?" "Why did we need to come to the office for pick-up?" "Where is dad?" I'm here for a meeting. You came to the office because I am here for a meeting. Your dad is at home because I was here for a meeting. You would think that would have ended the conversation but nope - my curious little angels just couldn't grasp the change. "you mean you were in a meeting here?" "how did dad know he shouldn't pick us up?" "I still don't know why we had to come to the office". By the time we pulled into the garage I was not explaining any longer. Really, the concept, it wasn't that difficult, at least I didn't think so but apparently I was wrong. Boy no sudden moves in this family :-).

TTFN... and I will definitely think twice before I make any schedule changes again.

Oh My Gosh...

2011-10-08T15:23:00.001-05:00

or in other words, let's talk about sex. I was going to use that (the sex thing) as the title of my post but then I remembered what happened when I titled one of my entries "girls gone wild" and really, I don't want that happening again (people using that phrase as a search and ultimately landing on my blog - I can only imagine what a "let's talk about sex" search would bring here). ANYWAY, I thought I would put the topic out there for you right away so if you are skittish about this kind of thing you should just move along now. Sooooo, today in the car one of the girls asked what a period was (and they weren't discussing grammar) so I tried to explain the menstrual cycle on a third grade level. A mom's body thinks it is going to have a baby every month so it prepares a little nest for the egg and when the egg comes but there is no baby the body has to get rid of the nest so the mom bleeds for a little bit and the nest is gone. Okay fine that seemed to go well, I felt pretty smug and clever. Oh but wait, a question "mom how come a mommy doesn't have a LOT of babies? How does the baby get in the egg?" Ummm, well, the mom and dad have to do a special hug to make the egg turn into a baby. Oh good another question, "Mom every time you hug you could have a baby?" Ummmm, well the mom and dad have to do a special hug without their clothes on. " MOM, YUCK that is just gross. Why would you ever want to do that?" And then Syd, in her infinite wisdom said "well, if I ever decide I want to do that I am totally closing my eyes, or I'll wait for a power outage" at which time Lauren spoke up and said "why are we still talking about this". It sort of shut down the conversation - although I was sure to tell them I did not want to find out they had been talking about this at school to which they both responded "ewww why would we want to talk about that at school it is GROSS". Man, I hope they think it is gross until they are at least twenty!

Yes, I know...

2011-10-05T11:20:00.000-05:00

it has been awhile. I don't even know if I can remember what has happened since we last talked. I know, considering the exciting life I lead and all. Well, let's see... I went and looked at a group home for Alex. It is an apartment building with common areas on the main floor (living room, bathroom, kitchen, dining room, and laundry) and two bedroom "apartments" on the 2nd floor. Each apartment has two bedrooms, a bathroom and a living area. I met the staff but none of the individuals living there as they were all out and about. There is 24 hour supervision and I liked the set-up and the idea that Alex would have a space of his own when he wanted time away. And he can decorate it any way he would want to once he moved in. When I talked to Alex about this at home he told me very adamantly that he would not be moving out and he would be living right here. I can see this is going to take many discussions. I am sure it is very confusing to him. I mean why would he want to move out and why would we want him to move out? And just to be clear, I'm not in any hurry to see him leave - I've always thought 21 would be the ideal age for him to try life "on his own" but if a good spot becomes available things might happen more quickly. As it is Alex is spending more time away from us in outside activities, respite, etc. I feel so guilty, like I am abandoning him or something as I am here and all. But we have been told this is good and it is part of the transition. Okay... but I still feel guilty - like I'm a lady of leisure without responsibilities. Dang it where are my bon-bons?

Yes, yes, yes, I have been watching Dancing with the Stars. I'm glad that Kristin or Kristy or Christa or whatever her name is went home last night but it must have been a huge slap in the face to her as Chas Bono is still in the running even though he can barely move his he/she butt across the room. Speaking of Chas, I find him kind of likable and could care less about his sexual gender orientation as long as he doesn't show up at my door like a Jehovah's Witness asking me to check out his "Watchtower". Then again, I wouldn't want anyone showing up at my door asking for that unless it was Kyle Chandler or Rob Lowe or My Mario or ...

So moving on, Syd reorganized the bathroom cupboard above the toilet (the most poorly designed concept EVER) and now every time I open that cupboard door something falls out and lands in the toilet. So far it has been primarily fingernail polish which then goes in the garbage. I wonder how long until the girls notice their supply is dwindling...

TTFN... and NEVER install a cupboard over your toilet no matter how short on space you may be - it's a BAD decision. Trust me.

So much Syd...

2011-09-19T22:56:00.000-05:00

Syd is truly a unique individual. I love listening to her stories and ideas.Her brain is full of creativity and inspiration. She is a bright light on a cold night and she makes me laugh. A couple of weeks ago we were coming home from something and noticed fireworks in the sky. We found a residential street close to the happenings and stopped to watch. Shortly after we arrived a small convertible pulled up and parked a little up the street from where we were sitting. While watching the fireworks Syd climbed into my lap and said "mom, if the other person in that car is a girl I just know they are on a romantic date. If I were on a romantic date this would be my dream come true, a handsome boy, a convertible and fireworks and right in the middle he would give me a very romantic kiss. Oh and mom it's not exactly my dream date because that convertible is red and I'd want a white convertible". Seriously Syd. I couldn't help but laugh at her romantic fantasy. Of course I would be happy to wait years to see this dream come true.
Tonight she came running into my room (long after she was supposed to be asleep) and said "mom if you want me to eat my meat you MUST get it from Schwann's. Have you seen the meat in this catalog - it looks delicious. And Lauren wants the Swooshie (Sushi)! MOM THEY HAVE CORN DOG THINGS FOR BREAKFAST. I love this book!" Yes that is my Syd. It takes a special individual to be surprised, excited and totally convinced Schwann's has the BEST MEAT EVER!
Oh I love this girl...

And another happy bride...

2011-09-18T20:30:00.000-05:00

I received another picture from a happy bride who had me create banners for her wedding. I love when I get these pictures to see their special day.

Short and sweet today.

Someone's knockin' at the door - somebodies ringin' a bell...

2011-09-15T14:27:00.001-05:00

and it's fall, autumn, the dog days of summer gone bad influenced by the coming of the dreaded season of winter. UGH. It isn't fall that I mind. Fall is kind of nice. The light has that golden cast that makes things look like you are viewing them through a small haze of pixie dust, there is a musky, crisp smell to the air and even a hot day has a bit of briskness that reminds you that this is not July. Fall by itself is a nice time of year - but what it means is a different story. It means WINTER IS COMING. Snow will soon be flying. Cold is brewing and winter coats will be needed. CRUM. I don't like winter. Syd told me last night she loves winter because you can be warm and cozy in the house and drink hot chocolate and look for toys on the Internet (so much for waiting for the Christmas catalogs to show up in the mail). I don't care what she thinks I still don't like winter, well except for that part that kills the bugs so we don't have big creepy crawlies like they do where winter is not part of the seasonal calendar. I dislike bugs and snakes more than I dislike winter so I guess it's a trade-off. We had a hard frost last night - a little early and a definite reminder of what is to come in the not too far off future. I better start looking for hats and mittens it is hard to tell how long it will take me to figure out where I have stored them during that glowing, glorious season called summer! It's going to be a long six months...

TTFN...

Oh and speaking of Paul McCartney (you knew that was the song reference - right Amy - right?). He is getting married again. I hope he makes a better choice than his last money digging wench. I mean really why IS he getting remarried? He had a long happy marriage already, he has a lot of money, he could date almost anyone he wanted and I can't imagine he wants more kids - he's 60 something for gosh sakes. Oh wait I remember he's a man and men - they just can't live without us - it's a fact... :-)

Loose ends and uneven hems...

2011-09-08T00:40:00.000-05:00

I feel like my life is full of loose ends right now. Things just keep unraveling. I have to admit I'm not one of those people who have things fall into their lap and most of the time it doesn't bother me. I appreciate what I have more for the fight it took to get it - but I have to admit lately it has bothered me. This has even taken the HotY by surprise prompting him to say - "what is going on? You really aren't the boo-hoo whoa is me kind of person." And I can honestly say I don't know what is going on. Maybe I'm just tired, but I really can't sleep. And I think I should have some kind of a plan but no plan. Seriously - loose ends. I have even begun to wish I were the kind of person who had things just land in their laps (if that ever really happens to anyone). I've begun to think that just once I wish things would go my way (even though I know I have nothing to complain about). I've begun to hope that saying "when God closes a door he opens a window" is true (even though I'm a bit of a cynic when it comes to being truly faith filled). I've begun to think when is something good going to happen for me (and I HATE thinking that way - who am I to think I am more worthy - besides it is soooo whiny). But these thoughts have all been swimming in my head and I don't like it. I need a plan - but alas no plan...

It's all loose ends - one pull and it's an uneven hem...

TTFN - thanks for listening - just needed to talk - I'm sure I'll feel better in the morning.

Another school year - another year closer to 18...

2011-08-31T18:25:00.000-05:00

which I am not looking forward to at all - the moving closer to 18 and independence part. But that is another thought for another day. My babies started school yesterday and I was sad. I've talked about my last day of school blues but I'm never sad on the first day of school. It's fun. It's exciting. It's a new adventure and a new start. But this year - I was sad. Maybe it is because I was able to spend the summer with my kids - I don't know but as much as I enjoyed the freedom of six hours ALONE I was still sad and watching the clock until I could pick them up at the end of the day. I am continually amazed at the emotionally hard job this mom stuff is...

Here are the pictures.

TTFN...

My heart just went pitter-patter

2011-08-29T10:58:00.000-05:00

I'm sitting here doing my usual computer stuff while the girls are playing games at the kitchen table. Alex just came home from his summer job and has handed me his communication notebook. Since Alex's communication skills are limited and we want to keep track of how Alex is doing and encourage good job behavior his job coach adds an entry to the notebook each day he works to let us know how the day went for Alex and if there were any problems. I am happy to say that most days he gets a good report and earns a peanut butter cup. Today he is especially proud of his day. After showing his report to me he just took the notebook to each of the girls so they could read about his wonderful day. Lauren is reading the note - Alex "helped" her with a hard word or two and now she is lavishing praise on her older brother. My heart just gave a huge pitter-patter. Ahhhhh this is why I have kids. Moments like these. If nothing else good happens today this morning was enough.

TTFN... oh and now Alex is having the dog "read" his report she seems slightly uncomfortable and aloof - walking away - all this good news for Alex is making her look really bad with her trash can rummaging, napkin stealing and sock chewing ways.

Why yes, I am in the shower...

2011-08-25T03:51:00.001-05:00

the other day while in the shower Alex came bursting through the bathroom door, proudly announcing "mom, phone!". I had no choice but to grab the phone which he was thrusting into the shower after turning off the water and lowering the volume on the radio. It was only a local car dealership calling to check on service we had recently had completed on the van. I am sure the person on the other end was fully aware that I had been in the shower since they had the pleasure of hearing the pounding water and echo of the radio before I realized a phone was being thrown at me :-) I'm just glad it wasn't a potential employer calling to set-up an interview. That could have been interesting "yes, I'd love to come in for an interview. What? No, really I'm not busy we can set-up something right now just let me grab my shaving gel so I can write done the details. What? Why yes I am in the shower - Why do you ask - is it a problem? I promise to be fully clothed when I come for an interview. And really, I wish you had called just seconds earlier you could have heard me belting out Lady GaGa's newest tune. I'm sure you would have enjoyed it." Yep, it could have been interesting. I'm almost sorry it didn't happen - almost...

I obviously have some phone answering etiquette to discuss with Alex (and all the kids really) although he is great with telemarketers :-)

Oh and just to clarify so no one is making any undue judgements I typically DO NOT like Lady GaGa, her meat dress and weird videos included, but I really like her new song (click here to listen) it's got a great beat and is easy to dance to (where has that phrase been heard before - anyone) seriously I do like it - until it gets played to death of course but right now it's still in the honeymoon phase.

TTFN...

Doggy Dippin'...

2011-08-18T22:12:00.001-05:00

My childhood hometown, a small community with an awesome swimming pool, is closing for the season on Sunday. After the pool closes to the general public they are going to have a "doggy dip" which is essentially a swimming party for dogs before they begin to drain the pool. I received an invite on Facebook (I mean really, is there any other way to hear information anymore?) and am seriously considering taking Autumn. I've never been to a Doggy Dip before. The kids would love it and although my hometown is just over an hour away they have only been there once - the girls were three and Alex was thirteen (my parents don't live there anymore, my grandparents have passed away and most of my relatives are scattered across the country so there hasn't been any urgent reason to visit). AND it really is an awesome pool so we could go early and the kids could swim and then we could take Autumn in for a refreshing dip.

It sounded good on paper so I mentioned it to my friend Roxann thinking she might want to come along. She was silent for a moment and then she said "you're going to take your dog to a pool with a lot of other dogs and people - your dog?" she seemed a little puzzled that I was considering it. Sure she (the dog, not Roxann) gets a little excited around new people and has been known to pee on the floor in her frenzy of jumping, licking, tail wagging, rear wiggling delight but she settles down after three or four hours. Besides we have taken her to to the dog park - she behaves - most of the time. How bad could the doggy dip be - she's never been swimming before, there will be several other people and dogs, kids will be walking around with ice cream cones and hot dogs in their hands, I don't see a problem. Besides, it's a fenced in pool and except for that people and food loving thing I don't think there would be any problems at all, it'll be fun, I'm not stressed at all.

So the HotY and I will discuss the skinny dippin' dog day a little bit more before the final decision is made - but really I think she will be fine, really, just fine, really, trust me, it will be good, really. Fine, think what you want but I still think it would be fun.

TTFN...

Do you pin?

2011-08-16T16:43:00.000-05:00

Have you discovered Pintrest? At first I didn't get it. I would see people posting "pins" on Facebook but I just didn't get it. So what's the deal? They like that? They don't like that? And what the heck IS THAT much less what is a pin? So I decided to check it out - and I'm hooked. Pintrest is like those big folders you have that are stuffed with pictures from magazines and idea books and stuff printed out from the computer except without all the mess and storage issues. And if you aren't one of those people who likes to hang onto things you see and like than you might not understand the allure of Pintrest but for someone like me who is always wanting to remember pretty things it is a gold mine!

The boards are kind of interesting too in that I think they can tell you a little about the person who created them. If you were to look at my boards you would think that I like cooking while wearing a lot of diamond rings and stiletto heels while shopping for expensive clothes on the Internet surrounded by pretty flowers and making gorgeous cards to send to all the people in my life :-) It might be true it might not - you decide :-

If you are on Pintrest let me know and I can start following you or follow me and we'll find each other. It's like Internet shopping for kindred spirits.

TTFN... happy pinning!

I'm sorry...

2011-08-15T10:22:00.000-05:00

So in rereading my more recent posts (yes, I reread, I always try to read what I've written as if I were someone other than myself) I have noticed I have done A LOT of complaining lately about just about everything and for that I apologize. I do not want to be known as that crabby girl who never had anything nice to say about anything and I'm feeling dangerously close to resembling that comment. Sooooo, here's to a week of no complaining. And really right now the sky is blue, a breeze is blowing, the house is quiet, the dog is sleeping and all is well. I hope you have a complaint free day too and if you notice THE "tone" creeping into my posts again please tell me - really!

TTFN...

I'm such a lucky girl!!

2011-08-08T20:32:00.001-05:00

And that was said WITHOUT sarcasm - seriously.

In my little Glitter Me! business I have had the pleasure of meeting so many nice people. Really, I have not had a bad apple in the whole bushel (dang it now you just know I'm going to get someone with an attitude to match J-Lo - just wait and see). But anyway, now that I have tempted fate and walked around my house knocking on every piece of wood I own I'll move on with my little story. I have had the pleasure of meeting so many nice people, new moms, grandmas, brides, especially the brides. And have I mentioned they have all been peaches? How has that happened? I mean I watch Say Yes to the Dress and some of those brides - NOT NICE! Maybe only nice brides are drawn to glittery goodness??? And you know I love to hear all about their big days because I love weddings. LOVE THEM! Sooooo, I recently had the privilege of working with an especially nice bride, Kristen, who was good enough to share her lovely pre-wedding pictures, some of which included the banners I had made for her. And guess what - I'm going to share them with you - I'm so nice like that :-) Here we go, without further ado (and yes I have the bride's permission to share - I'm nice and considerate :-)).

Kristen and Matthew

Aren't those pictures awesome? They were taken by her brother. Here is a link to his blog showing more pictures of the cute couple. ATD Productions.

Okay done now. I know how all this rainbow and sunshine stuff can be annoying :-)

TTFN...

I was wrong...

2011-08-03T22:17:00.001-05:00

or technically the HotY was wrong because really, isn't it always the male who is wrong? At least that is how it works in my world :-)

Anyway, I do have some pictures from Alex's party. Not the least of which is the infamous "hot air balloon" centerpiece. All the pictures were taken after the main event so it looks a little worse for the wear but you get the gist - and get to see our luxurious garage (ha).

Oh and Michelle look at that picture board on the far left - you are on there - told you!

TTFN...

It was good while it lasted...

2011-07-31T18:26:00.000-05:00

For the past week the girls have been staying with their grandparents. Enjoying camping in the great outdoors along with other fun pursuits. For the past week my house has been clean. I mean like stop on over don't even bother to call first clean. Oh look how pretty my house looks clean. Oh my, there is a cushion out of place I must fix that right away clean. It was awesome. It was so relaxing. It was paradise. And then they came home. I was so glad to see them and spent a few minutes cuddling with each and then in the time it took to lug their dirty clothes down to the laundry room there were towels on the bathroom floor, hair accessories lying all over and standing water on the counter. There were Barbies strewn over the bedroom floor, open dresser drawers and jewelry dumped on the dresser. SERIOUSLY. I had a clean house for 7 days. SEVEN DAYS and in seven minutes it was destroyed. Who in the heck knows if there is a cushion which needs straightening when it looks like a tornado tore through the living room. Ahhh yes, I'm very glad they are home BUT if only they could be home in a clean house...

TTFN... oh and if you are planning on stopping over - call first.

I've got nothin'...

2011-07-26T10:44:00.000-05:00

literally. I've got nothing in the way of pictures from the graduation celebration. I started out with the camera and then realized it was so hot and steamy my lens was fogged so I set the camera aside waiting for the fog to recede and assumed the Hoty would pick up taking pictures. Last night I learned this was not true. So I've got nothin' and I'm not the happiest about that. I guess you'll just have to take my word for it when I say it was a great party. We had many guests and a happy Alex. Food was plentiful and the decorations were pretty nice too :-) Of course there was the accompaniment of the dog howling in her kennel as SHE knew she was missing a good party. If there is anything Autumn loves it is a good party - all those people to jump on and maul and the possibility of a good belly rub. She really hated missing the festivities but was unable to join us due to the very reason just given of why she likes a party :-)

I know I had promised pictures of my idea for centerpieces but ummmm that went to the wayside with the non-picture problem and the fact that they were not a long lasting item - but I'll try to explain them. They were miniature hot air balloons. I used helium balloons, curling ribbon, small pails I bought in the Target dollar spot and marbles. I took one helium balloon and attached ribbon from the top of the balloon to the bottom of the pail. I then filled the pail with marbles and curling ribbon spilling from the top. Inserted a cut-out picture of Alex and placed one on each table. They really were cute but if you try them you will understand when I say PAIN IN THE BUTT. Getting that balloon attached to the pail and keeping everything straight was more trouble than it would seem. Oh and I won't even talk about the things that happened when a hot air balloon was assembled and ready to go and the balloon would break. Seriously, some things are better left unsaid... I also had picture boards, paper chains which I had envisioned festooning the ceiling in swags but as I was not the paper chain hanger my idea was nixed. Beggars can't be choosers :-) There were red and white paper lanterns hanging from the ceiling and of course a Congratulations Alex banner. Those things I may yet get pictures of but the centerpieces - nope.

And lastly I have to give some of the success of the party to my sister who worked her butt off filling coolers when they ran low, replenishing food supplies and just generally making sure the behind the scenes stuff went smoothly so we could welcome and visit guests. Of course along with doing it out of the goodness of her heart she does have her son's graduation coming up next year. I keep thinking of that phrase "payback is hell" :-) (love you Nic).

So that's it - a party recap with no pictures - sorry :-(

TTFN...

I'm on a break...

2011-07-22T15:34:00.000-05:00

Actually I am in the middle of cleaning the house, assembling decorations, making bars and supervising the HotY in the garage all for the sake of Alex's graduation party - which is a worthy occasion but this preparation stuff - it should have been started a week ago but we like to live on the edge in the Crabby house!

The problem is as I am working on one thing I notice something else that needs to be done like all the walls should be painted and the carpet replaced. I KNOW not something you can take care of in less than 24 hours. So guess what people are going to see what they are going to see, marks on the walls, stains on the carpet,and heaven forbid, maybe even a cobweb in the corner. Hopefully they will all love Alex enough to overlook the less than perfect environment.

I'll post pictures tomorrow. I have a super cute idea for table centerpieces (did I mention I haven't started on the centerpieces?). I can't wait to show you.

TTFN...

Scrapbooking confessions...

2011-07-19T17:07:00.000-05:00

I haven't talked about the middle-aged, middle-income, expanding middle hobby of scrapbooking in a long time because with the birth of my signs sb'ing (as it is known by those cool sb'ers) went to the wayside. I haven't made a layout in years. But because of the signs I do use the gadgets and gear for scrapbooking.

One of my gadgets is a Making Memories SLICE, which is an electronic die cutting machine - and here is the confession I HATE MY SLICE. It is not one of the new models it is the first edition which I have owned for approximately 4 years. I have hated it from the start but I made my bed and now I must lie in it. The dang thing needs constant adjusting. Like just now I am trying to make decorations for Alex's party and I installed a new blade but it won't cut right so I have to adjust the blade and adjust the blade and adjust the blade and then I have to apply more adhesive and then after fifteen minutes or so I have to adjust the blade oh and wait I need more adhesive now oh and now after about 40 circles I have to change the blade. Do you see the pattern here? Frankly right now I think this "gadget" is a piece of crap. I'd use my time better going out and buying a circle punch. GRRRRRRRR okay rant over. But really my Slice - it sucks!!!

Lazy, Hazy Days of Summer...

2011-07-09T11:40:00.000-05:00

There is no other time I wish for my youth (both childhood and young adulthood) than during the lazy, hazy days of summer. The sense of freedom, the excitement of what the season may bring, the anticipation. Last night as we stopped at the gas station and I watched a group of early 20 something guys piling into a van (really, a van) you could sense their excitement and joy of the freedom of a Friday night in the summer heat. FUN!

Okay I'm feeling a little melancholy today - maybe because the skies are a little gloomy and my kids have been spending the past week with their grandparents. Yep, that and looking through old pictures trying to put together a picture board for Alex's graduation party in a couple of weeks has contributed to my sad day. I feel so old today. UGH!!! And my kids are growing up and our dog Callie died and our dog Autumn is BIG and it might rain and that poor baseball fan died trying to make his son happy and bad things are happening to good people and CASEY ANTHONY IS GOING TO BE FREE!!!! It's a crappy day!

TTFN... my kids come home tomorrow I'll be back to my crabby self in no time.

Much ado about nothing...

2011-07-01T19:17:00.000-05:00

The kids and I went out for lunch today to kick-off the holiday weekend. There is a local restaurant (Newt's for those of you in the area) which has opened a new location. I was excited about this and thought we were in for a treat. NOT. It was so disappointing. The food was not great (I had come to expect is was going to be great - my burger was overdone) and the service was definitely not great. Our waitress was okay but not very attentive and really just looking around at the staff in general they all looked mad about something. I saw little smiling, little friendliness - almost like the customers were putting them out for even having to be there. I mean I know it is hot and everything but I don't think one customer in the place called any one of the waitstaff personally and asked them to come into work I guess I felt like they were all - "this is Newt's we don't have to be nice - everyone thinks we're great". So I'm sorry to say I think that was our last trip to this establishment.

I know not much of anything to say but I thought I better update since it has been awhile.

Oh and the HotY and I are celebrating our anniversary this weekend. 19 years of wedded bliss ;-) Guess where we won't be gonig to celebrate :-)

TTFN... enjoy your long weekend!

New Etsy project...

2011-06-26T21:28:00.000-05:00

I've been working on a new design for my Etsy shop - Glitter Me! - after much trial and error I finally have something ready to show you.

Backside

What do you think? Is it something you would buy? I have adorned and embellished a stretched artist canvas, given it a protective coating and it is ready to hang, display on an easel or a shelf. It is light weight so you could even use a ribbon to hang it to a hook or on the wall. Please tell me what you think? Is this something you would buy? Any thoughts on a price point? I have to do my market research you know!

Thanks for looking. Please let me know what you think - and remember BE NICE!

TTFN...

It's better than reality tv...

2011-06-25T15:23:00.002-05:00

Okay, I'll just come right out and tell you - I am riveted to the Casey Anthony murder trial taking place in Florida. I watch every day and have learned a lot about court proceedings - seriously.

Also, I have decided that if I ever need a lawyer I'm hiring Jeff Ashton and Linda Drane Burdick (or is it Linda Burdick Drane? - see I told you sometimes I don't pay attention to the little details). Regardless I would want them on my team and certainly not fighting against me. Holy Bananas.

The other thing I have discovered - DNA science fascinates me. If I could do it all over again I think I might become a DNA scientist or a private investigator - both of them get to take pieces of the puzzle and try to figure it out. That is appealing to me. I love that kind of challenge. How much information am I able to obtain without having direct access to the information I need. I always wonder what these kind of things say about my personality - maybe I don't want to know :-)

So there you go. That is how I have been spending the spare moments of my days lately - watching the legal process at work. Like I began, it REALLY is better than reality tv!!

TTFN..;.

Maybe I should audtion for Jeopardy...

2011-06-14T16:36:00.000-05:00

Have I mentioned my unemployed status? Oh I don't know less than 100 times? Have I?

Have I mentioned that I kind of like staying home and can't seem to be motivated to find a job because whenever I think of starting a new job or even going on an interview I experience intense anxiety? Have I mentioned that for the first time in 18 years for one child and 8 for another two children I am now at home with my children each day, every day, every week, every month until school starts again? Have I mentioned this?

Have I mentioned I haven't been sleeping and some days I am so bored that nothing stimulates me and thus have begun knitting dish rags for next year's school rummage sale? Have I mentioned ANY of these things because really I think I am lacking intellectual stimulation. There is something to be said about no stress but seriously some days I think I may go crazy being so self-indulgent.

Dang it I think I might have to get over the anxiety and get a job!!!!

I know rambling and random thoughts but that's why you come here - right???

TTFN...

Pomp and Circumstance...

2011-06-11T23:46:00.000-05:00

Alex graduated today. My first child - now an adult. I'm not sure how it happened but here we are.

Once the ceremony was over today was actually pretty low-key. We are having his graduation party in July. Let the planning begin!

The girls' have already told me they are taking care of the decorating. I can only imagine what their 8 year old imaginations have in mind - I'm told it's a secret.

Yes, that is the HotY and me in two of the pictures. I know it is truly rare that I show my face on this blog but my first child's high school graduation warrants exceptional circumstances ;-) Don't get used to it happening very often!

Here are some of the other highlights of the day.

Dance - Dance - Dance

2011-06-05T17:27:00.001-05:00

It was dance recital weekend so yes, I am going to post more pictures of my chldren. When all else fails and you have nothing to say post pictures. And if you are tired of seeing my kids - well that's fine - move along. Me, I love to look at their sweet faces - what can I say I'm their mom...

Things are winding down...

2011-06-01T09:36:00.000-05:00

The end of the school year is nearly here. Even the girls mentioned has fast this year passed by. That's pretty significant for 8 year olds so it must be true. Has someone changed the world time clock?

So the Lauren & Syd will finish up on Friday and Alex will be done next Thursday. I know this summer is going to pass quickly, which I'm dreading. Summer could linger on forever as far as I'm concerned!

Oh and in case you were wondering L & S did have friends attend their b-day party and pictures were taken - I'm just not comfortable posting single shots of someone else's kids. You know?

Okay, I've really got absolutely nothing to say today - just thought I should get a post up since it has been a few days. That's the problem with blogging too many days away and you have nothing to say and when you do have something to say you do a bad job saying it... Oh well, it's just for fun - right???

TTFN...

Nothin' but pictures

2011-05-26T20:57:00.000-05:00

More party highlights

If it's Monday this must be reality...

2011-05-23T18:52:00.000-05:00

Today's reality is:

the dog lying at my feet - paws in the air, head hanging to the side while I rub her belly with my foot.

changing the title of an older blog post because I have noticed that people find this page by doing a search of the term "girls gone wild" (which was the title of a post - but a perfectly innocent post about little girls having dance party fun). I hate to sound like a snob but I don't think these are the kind of people I want finding my blog. Not now - not ever. So the title has been changed to something much less likely to lure bad people to my pages.

9 eight year old girls attending a Rock Star birthday party in your own home. Seriously if you need a dose or real-life drama spend time with a group (two or three just can't do justice to the experience) pre-adolescent girls. There's laughing and crying and screaming and jumping and boy talk and competition. Really it is all-emcompassing and must be personally experienced. WARNING - may lead to extreme crabiness during the aftermath and clean-up.

getting a little nervous about not having a job even though this has been an ongoing issue of choice and nothing new and yet the motivation to look for said job is severly lacking.

Yep, that's reality...

Ebb and flow...

2011-05-21T19:29:00.001-05:00

Life is full of ebb and flow, ups and downs, give and take, you now, all that stuff given as sage advice by those bestowing wisdom. My life is constantly being influenced by these factors which make or break a week, day, hour or even a minute. That's life! Being the parent of a disabled child I can sometimes really feel that ebb and flow thing. I don't speak too often of what it is like being Alex's mother. I don't know if this sounds bad but I just really don't give it much thought - it is what it is (another one of today's oh so enlightening phrases) but in it's truest form it really is what it is. I love my son and there is nothing I can do that would change the fact that he was born with Down Syndrome. That doesn't mean I don't have feelings and emotions about the situation it just means that I usually just take it all with a grain of salt and move on. I'm not sure I do that in all areas of my life, but in this one I do, right or wrong. So, I have been somewhat taken by surprise lately with the overwhelmingly sad emotions I have felt when reflecting on Alex's upcoming graduation date. It has nothing to do with the sadness I feel about my baby growing up and becoming more independent it has more to do with what he (and truthfully me) will not be fully experiencing during this journey of his life. I was caught very off guard after receiving the first graduation party invitation of the year (and each one thereafter). Tears began pouring down my face. I actually had to sit there for a minute and think "what the heck - what is this about - why am I crying" and then it hit me. All this joy and anticipation about the graduation festivities, the summer parties, the college preparations, they aren't really a part of Alex's life, our life. I mean we'll have the graduation and eventually we'll have the party (there seems to be a bit of procrastination going on by the main party planner in the house but what can I say, it happens) but the meaning and significance isn't quite to same. Although I have a soon to be graduating high school senior in words it is a surreal experience for me as in many ways Alex is still a child and will always remain that way. I feel a bit shameful saying those words because other than the day Alex was born I have not given much thought to the things I might miss in life because of Down Syndrome. The things I have experienced and the pure, unconditional relationship I have with my son is something few have the privilege to feel - it is a gift (really, can you believe how sappy this is - but it is how I feel - even if I do sound like a writer for Hallmark). When I feel sad about things with Alex it is because of how they affect him, but this, this graduation thing, is hitting my own feelings of loss. It's making me sad. I am missing the journey that most parents with a graduating senior are making. So there you go, my selfish feelings. I know this too will pass with the ebb and flow of everyday life, but it was just so unexpected. It was a low I didn't anticipate. So there you go, I've talked, I probably won't mention it again but for today, I talked...

TTFN...

Last night I didn't get to sleep at all...

2011-05-17T18:18:00.000-05:00

I have a new idea for my Glitter Me! Etsy shop. I saw something that inspired me and I was so busy thinking about how to execute the idea that I couldn't fall asleep. Does that happen to you - you get so caught up in a creative thought process and you are so anxious to get started you just can't sleep? I won't even mention how many blog entries I have written in my head late at night (of course, by the time morning light is peeking through the windows, I have forgotten most of what I had thought was so witty at midnight :-)) but regardless - that kind of stuff can keep me awake at night.

In anticipation of starting a new project I have been cleaning my room/studio/office MESS (and yes that word deserves all caps, it is that bad). So tonight I finish cleaning, tomorrow a little supply shopping and then it is onto something new - not that the original Glitter Me! signs and banners are going away, I'm just expanding my options.

TTFN and stay tuned...

Oh and do you know who sings that Last Night ... song (no googling allowed)?

If you give a Syd a twenty...

2011-05-08T20:51:00.003-05:00

If you give a Syd a twenty and send her into the party store to buy cups it may take her awhile and bring a surprise.

If you give a Syd a twenty and send her into the party store to buy cups she will pick out the cups and show them to you through the store window

If you give a Syd a twenty and send her into the party store to buy cups you will wonder what is taking so long even though you can see her standing in line.

If you give a Syd a twenty and send her into the party store to buy cups she will purchase the cups and have change left over.

If you give a Syd a twenty and send her into the party store to buy cups and you see her standing in line and then you see her purchase the cups and then you see her standing in line again you will wonder what is going on .

If you give a Syd a twenty and send her into the party store to buy cups she will finally come out to the van triumphantly holding her shopping bag and exclaiming success.

If you give a Syd a twenty and send her into the party store to buy cups she will come out with a story to tell: She will tell you she found the cups and paid for the cups and had $16.78 left over so she decided to look at the party balloons. It is her first communion today and her birthday is coming up after all. She will tell you she decided that a cross balloon is probably a little bit too "partyish for the day so she decided to buy the big $9.99 birthday balloon which was $10.75 after tax. Then she will tell you she stood in line behind some guy with a MILLION balloons and it was taking FOREVER so she decided it didn't need to be inflated and moved to another line and bought the balloon so now she has the party balloon for the birthday party she and her sister are planning. And she will be so proud of herself that there is no way you can be mad even though when you gave a Syd a twenty all she was supposed to buy was party cups...

We're on our way...

2011-05-07T23:42:00.000-05:00

May and June are such busy months for us. We have First Communion and Birthdays and Graduation and something else but I can't think of what it is right now. But it's floating out there - it'll come to me.

Today was First Communion. The house was clean. The weather was good and the girls looked beautiful. I think that qualifies as success.

Another Frantic Friday - The Royal Edition...

2011-04-29T19:19:00.000-05:00

Okay yes, yes I awoke at 3:00 a.m. to begin watching the Royal Wedding "pre-game" shows not wanting to miss a single second of the big day (anyone who knows me even a little bit should not find this surprising). There is nothing like a beautiful wedding - well actually there is nothing like a beautiful wedding dress. I love wedding dresses - they are like the dessert of the fashion world. It might be a little impractical to wear one every day but still, think of the possibilities! I liked Kate's dress (and yes, I do feel free to call her Kate - we are such close personal friends and all) but it had to grow on me a bit. It was timeless and classic. Initially I was a little disappointed - I was expecting something more dramatic but by the time the newlyweds processed out of the church I had decided it was perfect. She was a beautiful, happy bride just as she should have been.

I'm glad I was up to see the bride and the groom and the pageantry. It was fabulous. And yes, I realize there are great tragedies happening in the world - tsunamis, earth quakes, tornadoes, etc. but there are also fun, romantic and grand happy events to celebrate as well as tragedies to grieve So today I'm going to celebrate. Maybe I'll wear a wedding dress to the grocery store - be the dessert of life. And seriously, think about how much fun that would be - "no I don't need my milk in a sack but if you could find a prince to carry me to my car that would be lovely"...

TTFN...

Havin' a jiggy shimmy does not a dancer make...

2011-04-26T20:20:00.000-05:00

Oh Kendra baby - just because you know how to shake that BOO-TAY and those BOO-BAYS does not mean you know how to dance. Seriously... As Bruno alluded you can take the girl out of the strip-club but you can't take the stripper out of the girl.

So yes, I will admit it I am not a Kendra fan. She's a whiner. She likes to be a victim and she can't dance. She may know her way round the strip club but without that pole to hold her up she's got nothin'. I'm hoping she will go home tonight but I am sure there will be no such luck. Call me jealous if you like but really if she had a graceful, rhythmic move in her body I'd be all over the girl with dancing praise.

That's it. Just needed to get that out there since she isn't taking my calls. Sorry Kendra, I'm just trying to help, seriously :-)

TTFN...

Say Cheese...

2011-04-24T21:19:00.000-05:00

We spent a nice Easter weekend at my parent's and here are the obligatory pictures of my kids:

Would it be a bad mother thing to say that one or more of my children may be entering that "awkward" stage???

Yesterday...

2011-04-20T10:31:00.001-05:00

It snowed. It was April 19th.

I bought cute sleeveless Easter dresses for the girls thinking how nice it would be by the time Easter rolled around.
Yesterday, it snowed.

Last week I thought about trips to the greenhouse to get hanging baskets and pretty flowers to decorate the outside of the house.
Yesterday, it snowed.

I am so looking forward to having a non-working summer that I can hardly stand waiting another day.
Yesterday, it snowed.

And it snowed because of that desire I have to enjoy the summer, spending sun-filled days and warm balmy nights with nothing more to worry about than what color flip-flops I should wear. If I were still working, stuck in a windowless cube jungle the weather would be beautiful. The sun would shine and yesterday, it would not have snowed. Yes, it is all my fault. The last time I remember having such a crummy spring or summer was when I was the proud owner of a Mustang convertible. It rained almost every day that summer. Oh Mother Nature why do you hate me when I love MOST of your seasons so much?

In other news - yesterday the dog ate a pill which fell on the floor. The pill was not meant for her. If it had been a tomato or a pill she was supposed to take she would not have touched the darn thing but since it didn't belong to her and she thinks there is nothing better than food of the non-vegetable variety which belongs to her humans she ate the pill. Dumb Dog! I took her to the vet and 174 dollars later I found that she was just fine and the pill did not cause any ill-effects.
Oh and yesterday - it snowed.

TTFN... hoping for sun!

Just another Frantic Friday...

2011-04-15T20:27:00.000-05:00

Recently there have been a number of times when I have thought "hey I should blog about that" and then I decided, "well maybe that isn't blog-worthy" (as if some of my previous posts have really been blog-worthy - HA). So here I am on another Friday night and it is all kind of frantic - or random at the very least.

The girls have decided they are going to become skateboard Internet sensations. I'm not sure what a skateboarding Internet sensation is but it seems to require making many, many videos and saying dude a lot.

Alex and I went to The Wizard of Oz ballet - yes I said ballet. I wasn't sure what to think but it was very cute and Dorthy had the most fabulous pair of red glitter toe shoes I've ever seen. I'm not sure where I would wear red glitter toe shoes but they caused me a great deal of shoe lust. .

Syd loves classic rock. On the ride home from dance tonight I had a classic rock station on and first they played Me and Julio Down by the School Yard (is that the official title) and then Life in the Fast Lane. As we pulled in the driveway Syd said "mom, thanks for not changing that great music". Who knew and just when I thought it was all about Hannah Montana and Justin Bieber - there is hope!!!!

May and June are going to be crazy months filled with activities so I am enjoying these last few quiet days of April even if it is snowing as I type and is a beautiful day for November!

I feel like I live in a laundromat. The washer and dryer seem to be in perpetual use. The laundry mountain never diminishes. UGH. It doesn't help that my dryer takes at least 2 hours to dry a load of towels (and no, mom, I am not overloading it). One of the local appliance stores has a steam washer and dryer set on sale. Does anyone know about the steam washer and dryers? Pros - Cons? Input is appreciated :-)

My neighbor is still cracking the whip on the walking thing although I got a skip today (I said "here's the deal - I'm crabby and just a general PITA today so we can walk and I can bitch or we can skip". He opted to skip - good answer :-))

Okay I told you it would be frantic or something like that anyway so it isn't like you didn't know going in today!

TTFN...

I'm not ready...

2011-04-06T21:11:00.002-05:00

Alex at 10 years old

Alex brought home his cap and gown and graduation announcements today. It made me cry. I'm not ready for this. I'm not ready to let one of my babies leave the nest. I never really imagined what this day would be like for me. I know he isn't moving out tomorrow but graduation is just another step towards independence - and really what will my kids do without me (okay fine what will I do without my kids?)? Sure they drive me crazy some days and stress me out and just tonight I thought "I need to get out of this house and away from these kids and the HotY if only for a minute" but you know that's all on my terms and that makes it a totally different story (hey at least I'm honest - selfish - but honest). What in the world am I going to do when Alex's moving day is actually upon us some day? I'm going to be a MESS!!

Well I guess I better start facing reality - and party planning.

TTFN... I'm still trying to find a way to get out of the house for a couple of hours.

I don't know how much more I can take...

2011-04-04T19:43:00.000-05:00

So this Sunday's family movie night choice was Black Beauty (Lauren's pick this time). OMG - could there possibly have been a more depressing movie? Between people getting sick and having to move and leave their horses behind to Ginger the horsey (literally) girlfriend ending up dead on the back of a wagon to Joe the horse's childhood savior walking by Black Beauty not once BUT twice without realizing it was him raised my anxiety level to an all time high. Do they make family movies which aren't heart wrenching - holy bananas.

Oh and I didn't have high hopes for this season of DWTS (Dancing with the Stars) but so far I'm impressed. I mean Wendy Williams doesn't have a chance in h#ll but the rest of them aren't too bad. And, I have no idea who she is but that Chelsea chick can really move - just think if they paired her with My Mario (well you know in the event I'm not avialable to dance with him of course). I'm just saying...

TTFN...

Friday Ramblings...

2011-03-25T19:22:00.000-05:00

TGIF- although the allure of Friday isn't quite as enticing now that there is no job looming on the horizon of Sunday - still Fridays' have a carefree feel about them so in the theme of the day I've decided not to worry so much about what to write as just to write - you know :-)

Last weekend's trip to the BIG BIG BIG mall was fun. The girls had their pictures taken at the American Girl store with the cut-out of the newest doll.

Pictures courtesy of my mom. I tried to take photos with my phone but I kept taking videos instead - I have no idea how that kept happening. I'm sure it's the phone - it couldn't possibly have been me!

Lauren rode the upside down roller coaster. The girl is a thrill seeker - people are always surprised by that fact she hides it well :-)

The girls also rode the smaller yet longer roller coaster (Syd rode it twice as she wasn't quite brave enough for the upside down coaster).

We lunched and strolled and shopped. It was a good day.

I've been walking almost every day with my neighbor. Even in the rain. I KNOW! I tried to get out of it. It's wet, rainy, cold, etc. got me nowhere. When Bernie says we're walking we walk. Man I find him annoying :-) Seriously, as I mentioned last fall - I like walking but sometimes the motivation is missing so it is nice to have a little push (even if it does mean rain hair). Hopefully I'll be making real progress by late spring and won't even think of skipping a day.

Lauren is fascinated with Husky's (as in dog) and is constantly drawing them. Her newest creation is a Husky mask.

It's pretty creative if I say so myself. Notice the blue buttons for eyes - the girl notices the details.

That's it. It really isn't even much of a ramble - maybe next time.

TTFN...

So about that left lane...

2011-03-18T21:39:00.001-05:00

today I traveled to a small town about 30 minutes from my biggish city to have lunch with my friends Amy and Heather. As I was traveling down the highway (or is it an interstate or maybe a freeway - I don't know all I know is it has four lanes) I kept thinking how it has been ingrained in me by my father that the left lane is for passing SLOWER traffic. It's not for cruising down the highway, driving in tandem with the car in the right hand lane thus backing up traffic and creating considerable amounts of road rage (are you listening to me left-hand drivers - you can get to Walmart just as quickly in the right lane as the left so move it over and quit blocking the flow - Holy Bananas).

Anyway, I was traveling down the highway and I did indeed pull into the left hand lane to pass SLOWER traffic, but as I moved into the lane I noticed there was a line of 5 cars which I would consider slower traffic - each car had the distance of approximately two car lengths between them. So what to do? Do I weave in and out of traffic thus freeing the left lane for any faster cars which may approach (there weren't any at the time in case you were wondering) or do I cruise in the left lane until I have passed the entire line of slower traffic? I mean really - which way is correct? I went with the left lane driving - but it made me anxious. There weren't any cars behind me and I kept an eye on my rear view mirror (fine I may have also been watching for cops) but still I was anxious until I had passed the entire line of cars and could pull back into the right lane. Was that the right thing to do? What would you have done?

I'm going to be traveling the open highway again tomorrow with my daughters. We are heading for the BIG BIG BIG Mall in the BIG BIG city. We are meeting my mom and sister for a girls' day. It will be fun. Both my girls have counted the money in their piggy banks and determined the amount they will be taking for their shopping sprees, my cell phone is charging, and the gas tank is full, It's going to be a good day but if anyone can shed light on the which lane is which when there is an entire string of slower traffic that would be awesome and would do much to minimize by anxiety! Hey, I don't have a job anymore I have to worry about something.

TTFN...

Daylight Savings Time - how I adore thee...

2011-03-14T19:49:00.000-05:00

I know there are actually Daylight Savings Time haters but I'm not one. Sure I miss that one hour of sleep for that one day but after that it is all gravy. That sunlight at 7:00 p.m. does this winter hater a world of good. Hope that Spring really is on the way. AND bonus this week we are supposed to have at least 2 days of temps in the 50's. LIFE IS GOOD.

That's it for today. I know it might not sound like much but it is A LOT - I'm just sharing the love :-)

TTFN... Go catch some rays...

Happy Birthday...

2011-03-09T00:59:00.002-06:00

Barbara Millicent Roberts - better known as Barbie. It's your day. Throw a party at the Dream House, drive along the coast in your pink convertible, have Ken over for dinner. Live it up girl! I mean really you don't look a day over 25 and you are over 50 after all.

Oh and Lauren would like to know why all fashion dolls are called Barbie Dolls - they can't all have the same name and why are Ken dolls called Barbie dolls because Ken's aren't Barbies at all - THEY'RE KENS! It is a very perplexing problem to her.

So anyway, if you're at Target today go see Barbie and be sure to tell her happy birthday - oh and I MAY have mentioned this in the past but it's my b-day too. If you need me I'll be over at the Dream House having a little birthday cake and chit chat with Babs. Maybe she'll let me borrow her convertible...

Fluffier...

2011-03-08T19:38:00.000-06:00

3months and she is finally getting fluffier.

Well maybe it's not obvious to you but she is getting fluffier - really she is.

Is there a full moon?

2011-03-08T04:41:00.001-06:00

Because really, none of the females in this house are sleeping. The girls have been in and out of our room several times, the dog is pacing and I can't sleep regardless of the girls or pacing dog. UGH. Everyone is restless so I wondered about that moon thing but I wouldn't know for sure since it is cloud covered AGAIN and we are expecting more snow. This winter will never end, although on the plus side I can't tell you how much I have appreciated NOT having to go out and deal with it or the Walmart drivers. Who knew those people caused me so much stress - well okay I guess we all knew but still sometimes even the obvious can surprise me.

I'm going to try to sleep now. The girls seem to have finally settled into deep sleeps -- the dog is still pacing but at least she's quiet about it.

TTFN...

Mister Sun Sun Mister Golden Sun...

2011-03-05T14:02:00.000-06:00

please shine down on
please shine down on
please shine down on me!

I don't know about you but I really need some warm summer sunshine to shine down on me. Did you hear that Mr. Sun? I need snow melt. I need warmth. I need winter to be done. I need you Mr. Sun - I really need you. Besides I just purchased the cutest pair of Calvin Klein sunglasses (remember my sunglasses addiction problem - which is also a necessity as I seem to misplace or otherwise break or lose sunglasses frequently). My friend Roxann was shopping with me when I stated the need for new sunglasses - she asked me if I lost my glasses a lot - I just looked at her like Ummm how long have you known me - YES I misplace my sunglasses a lot. Holy Bananas pay attention girl! Anyway, I've got the glasses now bring on the sun!

Oh and is there anyone else who has visions of a large purple dancing dinosaur and his traveling band of precocious children whenever they hear the above mentioned song? Some things just shouldn't be allowed to continue to occupy memory space! Go away Barney go away!

All Skate, Everybody Skate, No more shoot the duck!

2011-02-28T20:21:00.000-06:00

Can someone please tell me what that means. A friend of my brother's used to say that and I didn't know what it meant then and I still don't know what it means today - so if you know tell me - I've been waiting for the answer for 20 years.

We took the kids ice skating yesterday. Alex went 1/4 around the rink and had his fill. The girls on the other hand loved it. There was a lot of falling but they did a pretty good job. If we get them on the ice more often they will probably be pretty decent skaters. Me - I don't ice skate - I'm from Iowa we don't skate or play hockey :- )

So what have YOU been doing?

2011-02-26T13:00:00.000-06:00

Oh, you wanna know what I have been doing? Well since you asked, I've been making beds and doing laundry and lunching with friends and watching the dog sleep - you know - the usual. Oh and there is that "I had a psychic reading thing" WHAT? I KNOW! I'd like to say it is something I had on my bucket list and can now cross it off but I don't have a bucket list (do you have a bucket list? Really, tell me what it is - this kind of stuff fascinates me) so I have no excuse than I've always been curious. And no it wasn't like Miss Cleo or something it was a local psychic who was recommended by a friend - so I did it - I was intrigued.

We had our call on Wednesday and she was very nice but didn't have any big revelations to tell me about myself - I was hoping she might mention my hidden Oprah potential or something. She did say this is going to be a summer of happiness for me (not in those words exactly - she went through the year month by month and it all seems to be sunshine and happiness once the sun begins to shine and the thermometer rises). News on my career is that I probably won't have a job until next year but everything will be okay in the meantime. Well that's a relief - let the shopping begin (okay, fine I'm not naive enough to throw caution to the wind but sometimes I wish I were). She talked about other stuff in my life but it is personal information and I'm not inclined to share right now but it was interesting and somewhat exciting. BUT here is the bottom line - although I do not think this person was a "hoax", I think she really believes in her craft and seems to be a great observer of the "human condition" BUT, as much as I'd like to be otherwise I'm a cynic at heart - although if you see me and I seem to be walking on the clouds and happier than you would normally expect remind me of the psychic thing - I could become a believer. Oh and by the way, I'd actually endorse a psychic reading with a "reputable" psychic - it's like therapy at half the cost.

So there you go - and WHAT have you been doing????

TTFN...

I wish I could sleep...

2011-02-17T02:31:00.000-06:00

I haven't been sleeping well lately. If I fall asleep I wake up in the middle of the night and can't find Mr. Sandman again. Or else I just can't fall asleep. I have no idea what the deal is. My mind keeps working and my body is restless. I toss and turn and stretch my legs all to no avail so I have resorted to getting up in the middle of the night and doing something. Tonight (or rather this morning as it is 2:00 a.m.) I am doing this - writing. I really have nothing to say but it is something to do.

I guess I could move along and make out my to-do list for tomorrow. Let's see:

Prepare Tax Information
Set up some appointments
Work on resume
Return emails
Go to Target
Walk the dog
Read to the 2nd grade class
Meet a friend for dinner

WOW, with the exception of two or three items that list is lacking in substance. Maybe I should add something like audition for Jeopardy or memorize the Dictionary. NO wonder I can't sleep - no stimulation. I better work on that.

Speaking of stimulation or the lack thereof - Bieber Fever is rampant in the house. With two seven year old females it was inevitable. Sunday we were able to "enjoy" the wonder of Never Say Never the Bieber Boy's story. It wasn't too bad but a little long - although two girls I know were absolutely enthralled. I mean he is a cute kid but he certainly isn't any Shaun Cassidy. :-)

Okay I think I might be tired now - or maybe you are just tired of me. I mean really, it's a possibility.

TTFN... Sweet Dreams.

Waiting for the thaw...

2011-02-10T13:41:00.000-06:00

I am in the doldrums of winter (I can't tell you how many times I had to type out doldrums before I got it right - my fingers have a mind of their own and o before u was not what was on their mind). I'm sick of looking at dirty, crappy, ugly snow higher than mailboxes. I'm sick of two lane streets reduced to one lane because there are big piles of snow encroaching into the traffic flow not to mention people who insist on parking in the street because - well I don't why but it is irritating (where is the neighborhood covenant which states no street parking?). I'm sick of cold temps and dirty snow pants and grimy boots and a foyer which becomes covered with sand on a daily basis from the street and the parking lot and the driveway and the sidewalk and the playground. I'm sick of winter. Oh shoot I'm whining again. I hate whining so let's call it complaining or venting or airing my dirty laundry or something other than whining because I don't do whining ;-)

And since I'm "venting" and all - I think I am now used to being at home but not so much that I don't feel guilty about being at home. Guilty and a little sad. I know I am smart, I know I am strong, I know I am employable but right now I feel - well one word sums it up - LOSER!!! But, in my most ambivalent style, I'm not ready for a new job yet. I know that sounds selfish but I have worked since I was sixteen and I'm tired of working for awhile and the HotY is fine with that - if only I could tell my brain to shut up and let me relax. UGH. On a better note my family is enjoying many home-cooked meals and a cleaner house. That's a good thing - right? And you lucky people - you get to read all my random thoughts more often - I mean how good is that (said totally tongue in cheek - oh and cheek is one of those words I always have to think about spelling because I might say check instead. Loose, Choose, Lose, Chose are four more that I actually have to slow down and think about before I put them down - just thought I'd mention it).

Anyway, winter doldrums - that's where I am at. We are expecting a "spring" thaw this weekend. There could hardly be a more anticipated event.

TTFN...

Well it might not be obvious...

2011-02-08T21:25:00.000-06:00

but her fur really is growing out - it really is - trust me. And I don't know what is up with the wonky eye in this picture. Okay, fine, she is not the most photogenic dog in the world but we'll keep her - most days...

When does the fun begin...

2011-02-02T16:50:00.000-06:00

do you remember when you were a kid and you couldn't wait to be an adult because adults had all the fun? You could get up when you wanted to and go to bed when you wanted to and do whatever you wanted to do whenever you wanted to do it - there were no rules - there were no parents, just 24 hour fun all day every day. Being an adult - it is a blissful life - to a child. Any adult over 30 will tell you - this adult stuff - NOT fun. You might not have parents telling you what to do (and really let's be honest - do parents ever stop giving their "opinion" to their children?) but there are bosses and spouses and doctors and teachers and neighbors and just other adults in general that tell you what to do. There are bills to pay and conferences to attend and meals to make and houses to clean and children to teach. Seriously, does that sound like fun to you? I know, there are moments, moments when it is fun, but some days fun seems like a fleeting dream. Oh to be a kid again - it was so much fun... Did I mention today - not so fun. I was mad at the HotY, the kids were not listening and the house that was so clean only a few short days ago is once again a mess. I'm hoping tomorrow is not so so so - adultlike because I don't know about you but I really hate to listen to myself whine.

Oh before I go and while we are talking about perceived reality vs. real life reality let's talk about the oh so understanding Bachelor Brad just a little bit. I mean really is this guy for real? If he is really this sensitive and caring and understanding I don't think he should be a husband he should be a priest - well except for that part that likes to "intimately" explore every relationship so he knows which bonds are real. He seems to be doing a lot of exploring :-) I have a feeling that any engagement which comes of this little fantasy may be short-lived - I know - call me cynical but we shall see...

I know that was totally random but I didn't want this entire post to be one long whine. It's all about balance.

TTFN... look for one month regrowth pictures of the dog later this week. Her fur is growing back slowly but surely.

It's been a while...

2011-01-19T22:34:00.000-06:00

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? Okay so it's not you it's me. Sorry, it seems like the days fly by yet there has been nothing to say. I'm sure you know the feeling.

Work is winding down. Only 7 days left - it still seems a little surreal - I wonder when I'm going to get it. Sometimes I just have to learn the hard way (okay maybe a little bit more often than sometimes...).

The dog was shaved again.

Exhibit A:

Does she not look pathetic? And she is cold. Honestly she comes in, looks right at the nearest human and then shivers - like we don't feel bad enough already. I bought her a sweater yesterday (yes it's true) now she looks like a pathetic dog pretending to be a little old lady - but the shivering has stopped. I'll be posting monthly pictures just so we can all appreciate her regrowth journey :-)

Oh and while we are talking about this really important stuff - are you watching The Bachelor? I mean I saw Brad the first time around but this new touchy feely Brad - I find him a little annoying. First can he really be that understanding and second did the casting call for this season state that sad stories are a plus? I mean really - what a tragic group of women - good for them caring, understanding, vulnerable Brad is on the scene to hug and kiss and kiss and kiss them and make all their troubles disappear. Ahhhh reality TV. May the saddest woman win... Okay well now that I have that off my chest I won't even get into my thoughts on Nicole Kidmann having a baby through a surrogate mother. I KNOW - how could I possibly have time to think about finding a job when I have so much to think about!

And lastly, I baked a pie. I really should NOT bake pies.

It isn't that the pies don't taste good - they taste great - but that crust thing - well let's just say it needs improvement. And did you know one of the purposes of a top crust is to keep the apples from burning? Because seriously, when the crust you made kind of doesn't stay in one piece so then you take the bits and pieces and lay them on top here and there part of the apples show and then they burn - WOW who knew. I certainly did not. And just so you know my culinary expertise is not lacking in only pie baking it extends to layer cake baking also.

But I do make a mean Manicotti

TTFN... and now do you see why I haven't been writing - so many deep thoughts...

Too much trepidation...

2010-12-31T12:09:00.001-06:00

Here it is New Year's Eve day - the last day of 2010. It came so quickly. I'm not quite sure I'm ready to let it go. Last year, as far as I was concerned, 2009 could not come to a close fast enough. For some reason it was a hard year. This year was a hard year also but 2011 will be even harder. Although I will still be employed for one more month I believe I've started to say goodbye - goodbye to a 14 year career with a good company, a great boss, fun co-workers (well several of them anyway :-)), fair compensation and a comfortable place where I knew I belonged. Although I have started to say goodbye I'm not ready to say goodbye (I'm known for my ambivalence). I thought I was ready but I'm not.

I know people become unemployed every day - I know I've had plenty of time to look for another job - I know many would tell me to straighten up, cope and deal - but I'm not ready. The strange fact is I didn't even realize I wasn't ready until today when I was reading someone's thoughts on the end of 2010 and my eyes started welling up and the tears started flowing and then I realized I'm not looking forward to 2011, I'm not ready. 2011 is too much uncertainty and unfamiliar territory and budgeting and soul searching and trepidation. Too much trepidation. I'm not ready.

TTFN... May your 2011 be filled with good things in familiar settings and not too much trepidation.

The most wonderful time of the year...

2010-12-26T21:00:00.001-06:00

The follow-up edition. I love Christmas - I really do. I love the hustle and bustle and good cheer and pretty lights and Christmas trees in windows and little kids singing and shopping and wrapping and seeing family and sharing the love. What I don't love are the days following Christmas when the trees start coming down and the lights begin blinking off and the stores are filled with muddy foot prints and people returning the gifts that they just didn't like. There isn't so much good cheer as resentful impatience. And it's all happens so quick. One day everyone is hurrying and scurrying and the next they are trying to figure out what to do with all their old junk. I know it can't be Christmas every day but maybe once every six months???

Personally I won't be taking my tree and decorations down until New Year's Day so that leaves me six days to savor the season.

I'll just be over here - gazing at the tree and thinking about the memories of the season...

Merry Christmas...

2010-12-23T00:12:00.000-06:00

Merry, Merry, Merry Christmas!

Let the Festivus begin!

2010-12-21T21:58:00.000-06:00

Only two short days before the beginning of the biggest season of the year. I'm not ready. Cookies are not baked - except for one batch of Peanut Butter Star Cookies, which are tasty but falling apart because I used too much flour and the little helpers in the house were pretty heavy handed with the sugar rolling so the stars have all fallen off. Guess which cookies I'm making again along with the others on my list? I had plans of mixing up several batches tonight - I got ONE done. And that one looked iffy along the way. First I forgot to add and melt my chocolate chips, so back to step one. Okay good, chips added and melted - now to add the eggs while beating. Great - well except for that piece of egg shell which slipped in the bowl and never made it out. UGH. I'm claiming ignorance when someone gets that crunchy bite of cookie (Yuck and for some reason finding egg shell in my food TOTALLY grosses me out so I certainly hope I'm not the finder/keeper). When I talked to my sister to find out if she was making her "famous" Swedish Creams she told me she wasn't because she wasn't stressing herself out about baking this year - which I sort of sneered at (sorry Nic, but it's true). Now I'm wondering if she had the right idea - but darn if I didn't already buy the heavy cream to make those Swedish Creams...'
Along with the baking I have yet to wrap the majority of the presents to go under the tree and I never did make much progress on that Christmas card thing (I haven't given up on the dream - it could still happen). So I am hoping to accomplish much in the next two days - along with finding my Christmas spirit. The reason for the season has been totally lost on this soul lately. SIGH. I've had enough whine with my cheese so I won't even get into the cleaning I have yet to do before the present UNwrapping begins...

TTFN... May the Spirit of Christmas find it's way into your heart.

BLIZZARD...

2010-12-13T20:21:00.000-06:00

Yes, as the rest of the universe has heard we had a blizzard. The Metrodome collapsed. The Vikings had no where to play their little game. It was a weekend.

I haven't stepped foot outside of my home since Friday evening. I'm beginning to get a little stir crazy. That and as I was doing ANOTHER load of laundry I realized there is only one weekend left until Christmas and I now have an almost irresistible urge to venture out into the frozen tundra to complete my shopping. And really, how in the world does the time slip away from me every year? You would think after 40 something years of celebrating Christmas I'd get how the whole thing works. Not so much I guess.

Just a short post tonight. I wanted to include some pictures of the snow but I'm so sick of looking at it I couldn't bring myself to take a picture.

TTFN...

Well that snuck up on me once again...

2010-12-06T15:31:00.000-06:00

It's Christmas Card time. I always fail to remember I need to prepare for these things. You would think the big green tree in the living room and those cards arriving in the mail would be a daily reminder but it doesn't seem to be doing the trick. I haven't sent cards for the last two years. No Christmas picture, no cheerful letter rejoicing in the wonders of my young Einstein's, no pretty glittery card - NOTHING. Nothing for two years - but now I'm starting to get a little worried that people may cut ME from their Christmas card lists so this year I'm sending the cards - at least that's what I decided five minutes ago.

Sooooo, if I am on your list do not cut me - I really didn't cut YOU from MY list - NO ONE has received cards from me - really, I promise. And I might even put together a little letter (note to people - I like the letters I really do so if you can send a letter do it - and a picture - a picture and a letter - that's the best Christmas card) just to let everyone know about our lives and the dog (it's always about the dog).

Okay gotta run. I've got places to go and things to do. But if you see me out and about please remind me I said I was sending cards this year. Really, I seem to keep forgetting...

TTFN... I found that card on Etsy - here: http://www.etsy.com/shop/studioflowerpower?ref=seller_info - Pretty cool!

There's a mouse in the house...

2010-11-27T20:31:00.000-06:00

Sydney was in this year's presentation of the Nutcracker - Clara's Dream - as a mouse (she has self-named herself "Squeaky".

Squeaky was fabulous - of course that is my opinion - but she was a great little mouse.

Although there was much whining and crying about rehearsals and having to miss the very newest episode of Wizard's of Waverly she stated it was all worth it in the end.

A great start to the Christmas season.

I wanna go home...

2010-11-23T14:16:00.000-06:00

said in my absolutely whiniest voice. Really, just take a minute and imagine it. Dejected face, whiny voice, a longing gaze to the North. No I haven't been kicked out of my home to live on the street but I have been relocated to a new work space (no I don't have a new job just a relocation by my current employer). So this new work space - I DON'T LIKE IT! I have no natural daylight, I'm in a cube, my workstation is burgandy and grey (think early 1990), thousands of people work here, parking sucks and did I mention I have no natural daylight? See why I miss my old home?

On the bright side - even out of the thousands who work here I did randomly run into two people I know (not involved with my own division) on my very first day. It was kind of like being the new kid in school and then finding a first friend. I even had someone to talk to while walking in the building.

I'd post pictures but I'm assuming there is a policy against such things.

My world has gotten bigger yet smaller and filled with rules - you know how I am about those rules - some stick and some not so much. I've got some work to do.

TTFN...

It's been a bad day...

2010-11-10T21:23:00.001-06:00

first let me say I know exactly how self-indulgent writing a blog can be. It's my blog I can say what I want to. I can talk about whatever I want to. I don't have to wonder if you want to hear what I have to say or even care but I can talk anyway because like I said - it's my blog. Yep, blog writing is very self-indulgent. I wonder if they did a socialogical study of bloggers what prominant personality traits would surface. Egotistical, insecure, fame seekers. It's an interesting concept - I'm not sure I want to know which category I would fall into.

So in my self-indulgent vein I guess I'll talk about me - again. WOW surprised aren't you :-) Anyway, It has been a bad day. One of those days where I have been near tears all day long. Maybe it is the upcoming changes in my career life. Maybe it is the weather. Maybe it is the dream that I had last night that seemed so real I felt the loss when I woke up in the morning. Maybe it is thinking about what the future holds for my kids. But probably it is a combination of all the above. UGH.

I just deleted two paragraphs of blah blah blah. Even though I thought I wanted to talk I guess I really don't want to after all...

Sorry, let's try to get together again tomorrow. It will be a better day.

TTFN...

Another parental decision that didn't turn out quite as planned...

2010-11-07T21:37:00.001-06:00

Really, there are so many opportunities to make bad parental decisions that I don't really have to go out of my way to find them - but sometimes those decisions that you think are great - well sometimes bad happens before you even realize it.

Tonight is the perfect example - with a point on it. Every other Sunday night we have family movie night. We find a great family movie, dim the lights, find blankies and cuddle buddies, place the pop and popcorn within easy reach and settle in for whatever movie extravanza is on the agenda for the night. Usually it is a Disney movie, or Hannah Montana or Barbie or some other animated flick. This week I picked the movie and hyped it up all day long. Marly and me. A movie about a dog, a funny movie about a dog, a funny movie about a dog with a personality which too closely resembles a dog we all know and love (and I'm not exactly comfortable about that). I knew it had a sad ending but I assumed we could all deal with that. It's life, life happens, not every ending can be a happy ending. Little did I know it would be heart wrenching, openly sobbing, throat closing sad. And the best part of it all - bedtime was supposed to follow. It was an event - sobbing children and a dog, wet from the tears which were shed all over her shaggy coat. If it wasn't a Sunday night I'd be having a cocktail. Next movie night it's back to kids choice. But the dog - she's very happy - tonight she walks on water (the cat is really ticked off).

TTFN...

A sneak peek...

2010-11-01T20:27:00.003-05:00

Another Halloween over and done. This year I guess you could say we had hybrid costumes. They weren't quite homemade but they weren't standard issue store bought either - hybrid.

We had a Pirate Skeleton (part skeleton t-shirt, part new "sword", part hand-made vintage pirate cape from 1999), a Ballerina Skeleton (new skeleton costume with repurposed tutu), and a Devil Princess (new princess dress with new devil accessories, old leotard underneath for warmth). No one can say we aren't creative in this house.

And did you see those descriptions, that wonderful vocab (just call me the vocab queen - it's happened before) - hybrid, repurposed, vintage - I feel so so so 2010!!!

I'm leaving you with pictures. I'll have more to show later this week. There was caramel apple dipping, pumpkin carving and of course the pumpkin gut eating picture.

TTFN...

Oh and BTW - just when I thought it was safe to mention the frontage road and how road rage free I have been about it lately it happened - this morning - Walmart driver pull-out inches in front of my car. NICE! If Walmart can offer a photo center, and a pharmacy counter and a vision center why can't they offer a DMV branch???? What do you say Walmart - as long as you are holding all those bad drivers captive why not give them a little somthing to aspire too - like responsible driving???? It's just a suggestion :-)

Random Thursday Thoughts...

2010-10-21T18:38:00.002-05:00

I have had a lot of quirky random thoughts running through my head today and since my writing has been less than inspired lately I figured I might as well share. I mean, what have I got to lose, it isn't like I don't eventually end up sharing everything anyway.

So first, I have noticed there has been an epidemic of people calling me "Ang" lately. I'm not saying I mind but typically the "Ang" tag is usually thrown out there by people who know me well. People who are an immediate part of my life. People who I consider a friend and I assume feel the same way in return. BUT that being said, even among the intimate group there are some people to whom I have never become an "Ang". Angie yes, Angela sometimes, but the "Ang" thing just never seemed to come from their lips and I was fine with that - it's all a personal preference, although in the past week some of the "Angie" group of friends have actually started to become "Ang" callers. Again, I want to make it clear I don't mind at all, and typically it isn't such a big deal - but there have been a handful of people just this week (or maybe I just noticed it this week) who have begun calling me "Ang". It kind of makes me wonder what it is about. Has something about me changed. What? What changed me from "Angie" to "Ang" for them? It's a ponder...

Oh and on a tangent - here is a little trivia about me and my name. I used to HATE my name. HATE IT! I wanted to be Susie or Beth or Jennifer or Velvet (remember that doll with the plaid dress and "growing" hair) or anything but Angela or Angie. As far as I was concerned it was a bad name. But then somewhere along the line (and really I'm ashamed to say it probably wasn't until I was a young adult) I decided to embrace my name and love it. I didn't even realize it until one time during a doctor's appointment the young doctor asked me if I liked my name (while I was in the dressing room changing no less). Ffter I got done thinking "wow that is a weird out of the blue question to ask me while I'm changing my clothes" I said Yes and I realized I meant it. I liked my name. He then went on to explain he and his wife were expecting a baby and Angela was one of the names they were considering. At least it didn't seem quite so random then. I wonder what they named their little girl? I guess that will just have to remain up there as an unknown mystery just like the "Ang" thing (I don't think I have used quotations this much in my entire life).

Anyway, the other thing I feel a dying need to discuss is toothbrushes. This thought isn't quite as random as you would think as one of the columnists in our local paper was discussing the rules of toothbrushes - like no matter how immediate your connection sharing a toothbrush is pretty much off limits and I couldn't agree with her more. I just wish my daughters agreed because they seem to be under the impression that toothbrushes are equal opportunity household items. They have used my toothbrush, they have used each other's toothbrush, they have no sense of boundaries when it comes to teeth brushing. I've tried to talk to them. I've tried to buy different colored brushes. I don't know maybe it is a twin thing - but still - YUCK. USE YOUR OWN TOOTHBRUSH. Not doing so is gross!!!

Okay, that's it. My ramblings for a Thursday. Aren't you glad you stopped by - so much information in such a little space :-)

TTFN... have a good night.

Parenting - it's a hard job...

2010-10-19T21:04:00.002-05:00

UGH! Parenting. You would think I had never done this thing before but as I'm trying to guide my daughters through the trials and tribulations of second grade I am realizing how some things were soooo easy with Alex. His elementary school years included teachers and paras and counselors and parent advocates and case managers telling us what to do along the way. There was a plan and things pretty much went as planned - well until about fifth grade - but that's a different story for a different day. Anyway, with the girls it is MUCH different - seriously, I am winging it most days. I have no idea if I am doing the right things. I consider it a good day if I remember to sign papers and get folders into back packs (and really some days - it doesn't happen). I have to admit most days I feel like a failure as a parent. I actually let them skip dance every once in awhile, have candy after school for a snack and watch tv. If I was a real parent we'd have play dates and swimming parties and study time with apple slices and milk. I'm sure that is how it works in every other family - right??? So for today I'll just hope and pray that they grow up to be healthy, productive, well-adjusted adults. Did I say UGH already?

Sorry to be Debbie Downer tonight but I'm just feeling overwhelmed with life. I hope you understand.

Here's to a better day tomorrow...

I'll be putting this on the list of things I'll never do again...

2010-10-11T20:21:00.003-05:00

So earlier this summer I started having my nails done on a regular basis. I found a great salon and I just kept going. One day I decided to really live on the edge and have an acrylic tip attached to one nail that just wasn't living up to the expectations of the other nails. I know it isn't like acrylic nails are anything new but I had never done them before. So I got the tip and I liked it - I really liked it and the polish stayed on that nail much longer than the rest (ha, so much for the underachiever status of left hand index finger).

Next time I went to have my nails "done" I threw caution to the wind and said give me a full set of acrylics. So she did - and she did a great job and the nails looked perfect. BUT once I had a full set I didn't like them. They were too thick at the tips and I couldn't use my nails as screwdrivers or scrubby pads any longer. I couldn't even give a decent scratch to a mosquito bite. So I had them taken off assuming my nails would go on as previously living. WRONG. My nails are ugly, and scratched up and weak and they hurt. I know - who knew? See where vanity got me? Sore nails. So acrylic nails - been there, done that - not doing it again. I've learned my lesson but I'm wondering how long it will take them to get back to normal - anyone???

And the real lesson in all of this is I have long nail beds (it's a good thing - long nail beds mean your nails never look short and stubby) so there was really no need for the acrylic nails other than the allure of PERFECT nails. From now on I'm settling for above average :-)

TTFN... take care of your nails - acrylic is NOT the answer

It's an annual thing...

2010-10-10T22:16:00.004-05:00

Today we made our annual trek to view the fall colors in the bluffs and valleys of our own home state as well as neighboring state (should state be capitalized???)

I'll get into more about the trip later this week. Tonight it is just the pictures. Oh and FYI - these pictures were taken with the iPhone. I think they turned out pretty well considering they were taken with a phone.

About my daughter - what's her name...

2010-10-09T21:58:00.004-05:00

So Lauren has feelings which become hurt very easily. She is the pleaser in the group and can get upset if she doesn't think her efforts have been noticed. Tonight, while playing a game (I think it is called Buzz Word) Lauren insisted she had previously said the category we were getting ready to play - something that no one could recall and no one could recall it because WE HAD NEVER PLAYED THE CATEGORY BEFORE. No matter how much we tried to convince her that we had not played this card she insisted that we had, finally disolving into tears and claiming we never remember anything she does or know anything about her - which was followed by the following facts which she claims we couldn't possibly remember about her like, what her favorite thing to do in the winter is and what her favorite color is and what she likes to do on stay home days and then her parting words "by tomorrow you won't even remember my name" put the HotY and I over the edge. We were laughing so hard tears were coming from our eyes. This probably didn't help matters and certainly did not win us any parent of the year awards but it was just so dramatic and if you know Lauren it is all about drama. If she hurts her foot she may never walk again, gets a hang nail and her finger might fall off, and let's not even get into the dire consequences if she bumps her head. So her parting words were just so-so-so--- Lauren. We finally stopped laughing long enough to reassure her that not only did we remember her name but we knew her favorite activities and her favorite color but I couldn't bring myself to claim we remembered playing the category she insisted we did - BECAUSE WE DIDN'T PLAY IT BEFORE and that is my last word. That girl - she can be so stubborn.

TTFN...

Awkward silence...

2010-10-04T20:51:00.004-05:00

I have not been able to put a finger to the keyboard in weeks. I want to write but I have nothing to say. It's like that awkward silence when you are with talking to someone and you don't want the conversation to end but you just don't know what to say. It's exactly like that. So just like when you want to say don't go in that instance I'm saying don't go now - stick with me. I'm sure I'll figure out something to say sooner or later - in the meantime hang in there with me - Deal???

So this is reality...

2010-09-22T22:06:00.002-05:00

sometimes I tend to live a bit in denial, hoping and praying things will turn out okay without having to go to too much pain and effort. You know, like thinking there really is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. If only...

So as I briefly eluded to on this blog at an earlier date my job is not in a stable place right now. As a matter of fact my job will cease to exist as of January 31, 2011. I have known this for over a year. I have not done much of anything to secure another job. The fact is I just keep thinking things are going to turn out fine. My instinct keeps telling me not to panic. Last night I had a dream I actually looked for a job. This morning I woke up - my mind ignoring my instinct - PANIC!!!

I don't have to get a job immediately and maybe I can come up with some super creative idea to make my little Glitter Me! business more profitable and my friend Amy and I have a few ideas swirling around but the fact of the matter is - January 31 - it is almost here. What the heck am I going to do? Where is that darn pot of gold????? Where are my rose colored glasses - because really - seriously - Reality Bites!!!

TTFN - oh panic is a great motivator so if you have any job leads please do not hesitate to let me know.

GGGGOOOOOOAAAAAALLLLLLL......

2010-09-11T22:50:00.009-05:00

or whatever it is that they yell at those world soccer championships. It's another one of those details that I kind of skip over.

So I think it is safe to say I have a soccer player. Lauren had her first game of the season this morning and she was awesome if I do say so myself. She hustled and moved the ball and wasn't afraid to get in there and block. The girl is competitive and yet she is a good team player. All the makings of a good competitor. I was so proud of her today. Even with an aching head she kept at it - coming to the sidelines crying but still not failing to play her hardest. That's my girl!!!!! GO LAUREN!!!

And the halftime show...

The beginning...

2010-09-07T21:41:00.005-05:00

School started last week for the girls and today for Alex. The beginning of the school year. I am better about beginnings then I am about endings so there usually aren't any tears on the first day of school (unlike my friend Amy who has a problem with the beginning and not so much the end - we are very different that way). ALTHOUGH my baby is a senior this year and that makes me feel a little teary but the real water works won't show up until sometime in late May. Enjoy the reprieve :-)

Unto every life a little glass must break...

2010-09-06T17:11:00.002-05:00

My new furniture arrived on Saturday. It's more furniture than I had before. So far I have rearranged three times. Now I am on the wait and see plan - I'll see how I feel about the arrangement in a day or two. I'm still not sure it's right but I got tired of pushing the furniture around. The HotY helped but he really doesn't understand the concept of just a couple more inches - it matters!

Since I am changing my color scheme with the new furniture I need new accessories and pictures. I shopped for accessory pieces on Saturday and bought this gorgeous shallow glass bowl which I displayed with another big pretty shallow glass bowl I already had. I had them on those plate holder things that hold them upright - I can't describe what I mean but I think you know - right???? Anyway, they looked awesome on the sofa table. Those I knew were keepers and perfect just as I had arranged them. Well you know what's coming right? Today, while I was cleaning the girls' room Alex was messing around in the living room - I'm not exactly sure what he was doing sometimes he just wanders and moves stuff around - and it happened - CRASH. I knew exactly what it was. I walked in the living room, the HotY flew up the stairs and I just walked back out. I wasn't dealing with it (I know - see how I am - sometimes I just walk away). Alex came in the bedroom and profusely apologized I said it was okay that I knew it was an accident and I just kept putting away clothes. Then Lauren, always the just say it like it is girl, came in and said "wow mom, I thought for sure you would be crying". I wasn't because you know what - it is what it is. The bowls are broken. Will I find something similar - yes to the one no to the other. Was it just stuff - yes. It did put a scratch my brand new table and that makes me a little sad but what can I do. I guess it has just been that kind of weekend. Sometimes you just can't fight what happens. Sometimes you just have to walk away and let it sit. Luckily for me someone else was there to pick up the pieces - but it doesn't always happen that way - but still you can let it sit for awhile and deal with it when you can. KWIM? Unto every life a little glass must break - or something like that. For today I'm not fighting and just accepting the broken glass.

TTFN...

I've created a monster or my dog is not dumb or I have no idea what today is....

2010-09-02T21:31:00.002-05:00

In my quest to begin walking again (really are you sick of hearing about this yet - I mean really - if it makes you feel better I have stopped counting the days so I have no idea what number today is - 10 maybe????) ANYWAY - the walking has also resulted in dog leash training and iPod listening - all nice benefits - or so I thought until tonight when I decided to take a break night. It's rainy, it's probably bug heaven out there and I gave myself permission to skip tonight (it won't become a habit). BUT the dog had other plans. I am listening to my iPod while typing because there is nothing I want to watch on tv and if I run iTunes from my computer it slows everything way down so I just listen to the iPod - it bugs the HotY - I'm not sure why - maybe because when I have the ear buds in my ears I can't hear anything (like him or the kids running around when they are supposed to be sleeping or Alex talking to himself - I can hear Steve Perry crooning in my ear though - but I diverse). Anyway what I can hear is the dog whining and crying and barking and nudging my hand and legs and just being a nuisance - more than usual. At first I couldn't figure out what her problem was and then I realized she sees me with the iPod - she thinks we are going for a walk. She wants to go for a walk. She recognized the iPod. Either my dog is a genius or I have created a monster.

Oh and on a side note - we took the cat to the groomer yesterday and they shaved her down so she looks like a different cat the dog thinks she IS a different cat - genius or monster - you decide...

Oh Bruce Springsteen is singing to me now - so much better than listening to the kids fights. Eat your heart out HotY.

Day Six...

2010-08-30T19:36:00.005-05:00

Okay I'm about done with this day thing. My life just isn't that interesting. I'm still tracking my walking but I don't think everyone needs to keep track. Let's just say I'm going to once again make it part of my daily routine I'll keep you updated on how I'm doing now and then. Really it's a big thing - accountability, although tonight, tonight is probably a wash - if tomorrow night also ends up being a wash feel free to yell at me. I do have good excuses though, the kids start school tomorrow so there is much to do and I don't feel good - cramps. Enough said and really as crabby as I am right now I don't have the patience to deal with a non-compliant dog. Hmmm, it sounds like I'm rationalizing. Maybe I'll change my mind - I still have an hour to decide.

Rambling. Not feeling too chatty. Mostly feeling wound up. I should probably quit while I'm ahead.

Have a good night. I may walk after all - it depends.

TTFN...

ETA - I did my walk - even further than usual. I can feel summer turning to autumn in the wind so I better soak up the season of sun while I still can.
Oh and BTW I really have never liked the name Cupcake World for this blog - I was coerced into changing it but as long as I'm on a roll of not accepting the status quo I'm changing it back - Crabby Deal - that's what it is. Hope people can still find me - besides all those that are googling Cupcake World looking for a pelethora of cupcake goodness but instead find me are going to be a lot less disappointed. You know I told you I was feeling rambly and quirky tonight so if you are still reading this unconnected diatribe you have no one to blame but yourself - but really, I'm glad you're still here :-)

Day Four...

2010-08-28T23:11:00.002-05:00

Slept in
Bought Furniture
Had A Heart-to-Heart with the HotY
Had A Date Night
Went for a Moonlight Drive

The Dog is Pouting - No Walk - sorry pup but every dog has their day and today was not yours.

So I have no idea what I am doing with this numbering of the days. Day one was supposed to be an indication of - well I'm not sure what. Day One I guess. So for right now I'm just going with it. I know you might not like it but really it's my blog and I can write how I want to :-)

The series of pictures at the top is exactly why I bought new furniture today. Besides I told you this was coming awhile ago - who knew it would have taken so long - but then again - I just have to walk into my downstairs bathroom and it's unfished state and I am reminded that things around this house - they happen in stages - that's all I'm saying.

TTFN...

Day Three...

2010-08-27T23:16:00.002-05:00

Dog Walked

Laundry started

Time alone enjoyed

Okay well that time alone thing was good until about 9:00 p.m. after I got back from walking the dog. I'm lonely. The HotY should be home about midnight. I'm glad - but please don't tell him - no need for him to have this information :-)

I was looking for something in my photo files and came across a bunch of pictures the girls had taken with their camera. I'll save the Barbie parties and WebKinz group shots for another day. The picture above was taken by Sydney - I actually love it and I love seeing the things they are up to when they think no one else is watching. It makes me smile.

TTFN...

Day Two...

2010-08-26T20:09:00.003-05:00

NOTHING HAPPENED...

Well there was work and a doctor's appointment and meet the teacher and a two hour drive to drop the girls off for a weekend with grandpa and grandma and then there was supper with Alex and arranging respite care for Alex for the weekend and laundry. BUT there was no walking. I know there is still time but I don't know that it is going to happen tonight. Besides the dog is tired - she went to the dog park today. But tomorrow - tomorrow I am all alone. All kids - OUT. The HotY - attending a concert in the cities with some friends. Me - HOME - HOME ALONE. Can I get an ALLELUIA! Really, just one, for me. I haven't been home alone home alone in a long time. Right now it feels good. Don't get me wrong I love them all but sometimes distance - it's a good thing (don't even pretend you don't know what I mean). So tomorrow night it's the dog and I. We'll have a walking date under the stars in the moonlight - I just know she is going to love it!

TTFN...

Day one...

2010-08-25T21:01:00.003-05:00

WALKED THE DOG.

I used to be a walker. I walked every day. I loved walking. It helped me think and clear my head. It allowed me to admire the beauty of the trees and flowers and sun and stars. It made me feel like I was doing something for myself. It was my time and no one else could intrude - unless I let them. And then I forgot, I forgot all these things I liked about walking and I quit doing it. Sure we do the occasional family walk but I had forgotten my solitary walks until tonight. I just decided to do it, I wanted to do it. It was a beautiful night and the dog was bugging everyone so I put on my shoes grabbed the leash and headed out the door - just me, the dog and my iPod. And guess what I enjoyed myself and I remembered, I remembered how much I liked this feeling and tonight was a bonus as it was a beautiful night, just the right temperature with a full moon (or nearly full) to guide my way. The only down side was the mosquito's thought I was a tasty treat when I stopped at the park for a couple of minutes to mess with my iPod. I HATE mosquito's.

So I'm calling this DAY ONE. Tomorrow when I don't feel like walking I'll have to come back here and remind myself how much I liked it tonight. I'll let you know about day two.

TTFN...

Cousins unite...

2010-08-22T17:35:00.021-05:00

Last weekend we traveled to Michigan for a family reunion and wedding. There were aunts and uncles and cousins galore. Girls certainly outnumbered the boys and fun was had by all. There was dancing and tractor riding and swimming and sleepovers and ping pong and more dancing! Lots of pictures to share so the writing is short :-)

Dance Party Fun

Cousins

Slumber Party!

Wedding

Mark & Dee Larkin

Flower girls - Madigan, Teagan, Delaney
\Sydney

Lauren

Alex

Madigan

Olivia & Syd

Delaney

Shaylin & Lauren

Home Again Home Again Jiggity Jig...

2010-08-01T21:38:00.002-05:00

we haven't done much traveling this summer - which has been nice yet uneventful. We knew we had two family events in August which would require traveling and the rest of the summer - well it went unplanned. I know, what can I say, I'm not an advance planner.

This weekend was the first trip. We were in Green Bay for my nephew's graduation/birthday/farewell for college party. We left Friday morning and got back early this evening. We had a nice time. Saturday was a little rainy but ended up being a beautiful night. My nephew Nicholas has now been formerly welcomed into the adult world.

Along with spending time with my family the trip was actually pretty nostalgic. Before moving to my current fair city I lived in Green Bay for a few years. Although the population is about the same GB feels like a much bigger city with more character. I had actually forgotten how much I enjoyed living there - not that I want to move back or raise my kids there - but still it was a nice place to live at the time. I especially miss the lake shore and the short drive to Door County. If you have never been to Door County I would highly recommend this as a vacation destination - although you will want to bring much patience (for dealing with the heavy traffic) and much cash (for dealing with the inevitable shopping). And really, I'd probably recommend Green Bay too - but probably not for more than a weekend that is enough time to cover the highlights. Anyway, the HotY and the kids got to see where I used to live and work, and shop and go out to play with my friends. They were very impressed :-) Somehow they feel that if you have seen one apartment complex and office building you have seen them all - who knew.

Anyway, I'd post some pictures of our trip, but we didn't take any. I don't know why but it just didn't happen. So you'll just have to take my word for it - Green Bay - a city with character and some really blue collar bars!

TTFN...

0 DTE does not always mean empty...

2010-07-20T22:10:00.005-05:00

We have a low fuel indicator light in the van. We also have a digital display that can tell me everything from the temperature to the direction to the miles per gallon I am consuming to the ultimate and always helpful DTE (Drive To Empty).

The other day I had an early morning doctor's appointment - you know the one where you can't wear deodorant or any other kind of fragrance or powder (all you 40 and older ladies - you know what I mean). You would think skipping that part of my morning routine would have saved me a few minutes - but it did not - sooooo of course I was running just a tad late when I jumped in the van and backed out of the driveway at which time I heard the annoying little "ping" which told me that my gas tank was low. The ping had actually alerted me the day before but - well - I forgot. So I quickly clicked to DTE to see how bad things really were - 26 miles DTE. That is PLENTY of gas to get to my destination so I ignored the nearest gas station and headed down the road. Things were fine - I was singing, the sun was shining, I had taken Ibuprofen in an attempt to dull the upcoming pain I would be subjected to - life was good. And then I looked at the DTE and it said 14 miles. How did that happen, I certainly had not driven 12 miles. Yes I was on the highway and yes I may have been going a bit above the optimal 60 mph but really 14 miles DTE. Well I was still feeling smug and confident, the world my oyster. I took the exit, I came to the stop light, I looked at the DTE - 9 - that readout read NINE MILES DRIVE TO EMPTY. At this rate things were starting to look a little bit more worrisome but I was late and although there were grocery stores, and bridal shops and mexican restaurants and other small businesses there was no gas station within a reasonable distance - and I was running late. So I continued on still wearing my rose colored glasses but feeling them becoming a little foggy. I hit EVERY stop light on the way to my destination. I finally reached the street I am aiming for and notice my DTE is now reading FOUR! Yes, I said 4, but in my determined, yet somewhat flawed thinking, I thought this is okay - four is okay - I mean really four miles is a long way. So I continued around the block and got in line for entrance into the parking ramp and that is when reality hit me like a car out of gas. My DTE is now reading TWO - TWO MILES DRIVE TO EMPTY. Two is not very far - two is within walking range two is not enough to wait in line, find a place to park, come back from my appointment, wait in line to pay and find a gas station. TWO WAS NOT ENOUGH. So I pulled out of the waiting line - hurried up the block thinking of the nearest gas station and I hit a red light and then I hit another red light and then I hit ANOTHER red light - and that is when it happened - ZERO DRIVE TO EMPTY. ZERO. That's run out of gas. That's stall in the middle of the intersection and feel like a fool. That's tears running down my face and anxiety making my hands shake. That's I have no gas can but thank goodness my cell phone is charged. THAT IS BAD. BUT as luck would have it I made it to the gas station without even a stuttering stall to make my heart pound in my throat. I calmly filled up, took a deep cleansing breath and felt the out of gas anxiety leave my body - of course I was still filled with the I'm late I'm late for a very important date anxiety and of course the let's smash your breasts anxiety but that out of gas anxiety - it was gone.

So the moral of the story - zero does not always mean empty - although it usually does and I would not recommend testing this theory with any type of frequency. Oh and right now my DTE...

It'll be a good morning.

TTFN...

Missed opportunities...

2010-07-05T17:42:00.007-05:00

Okay I've tried to post this entry twice and twice I have wiped out it's existence (by accident) before hitting the publish button. Who knows what that is all about - it may be a missed opportunity but it wasn't the one I began talking about. That opportunity had to do with the assumption that today was a holiday and our kids would not have their normally scheduled activities to attend. WRONG.

We could have had a kid-free holiday to celebrate our anniversary (eighteen years and one day of wedded bliss. Think of it, the HotY, with me, a holiday every day culminating with that big day once a year where fireworks literally light the sky in celebration of our love. Did I mention bliss??? (sorry honey, I may have gotten a little carried away - I love you ;-)) Anyway, had we known we could have celebrated but we didn't know so we haven't celebrated - missed opportunity.

So back to reality - we had a nice 4th of July celebrating with my parents and sister and her family. Saturday was glorious with warmth and sunshine and swimming and grilling and firework watching and sitting under the stars while making glow stick jewelry. It was all good. Sunday was rainy but still a good day with family. Life is good.

Okay back to enjoy my holiday.

TTFN...

GROUNDED...

2010-06-25T21:40:00.006-05:00

This one - grounded!

The other day she asked to play outside and I said yes. I was outside for part of the time taking care of my flowers and then I went inside while she was swinging. Five minutes later I looked out the kitchen window to see a slightly swaying swing and no Syd. I went out onto the deck and called her name thinking she was probably just below on the patio but no response so I called her name louder - still no response. I went back inside and downstairs to ask Lauren if Syd had come in the house - no Syd. I checked the bathrooms - no Syd. I went to the front of the house fully expecting to see her riding her scooter in the driveway - no Syd. I walked around the house calling her as loudly as possible. No response. No Syd. I was starting to panic and could only think of that swaying swing which she must have jumped off just before I checked up on her from the kitchen window. The only way she could have been out of my hearing range is if someone took her - that's the first thing I thought. I jumped in the car and told Lauren I was going to look for Syd I drove around the block and stopped at our neighbor's who had been outside with her kids for a while. Have you seen Syd? Nope, no Syd. Okay now I was really starting to get worried because if Syd had gone to her friend Clare's house she would have had to walk past the neighbors house. So I kept driving up the street - hands shaking on the steering wheel. And then I saw her - halfway around the block and sitting on her friend Clare's porch with Clare. I pulled into the driveway and said in NO uncertain terms - SYDNEY ELISE GET IN THIS CAR NOW! Let's just say she did not hesitate. We drove back home, me chewing her out and telling her to NEVER leave the yard again without asking. And then I dropped the hammer - YOU'RE GROUNDED. No outside to play when we get home. No Toy Story III 3d. No Toys'R Us to spend the gift cards from your birthday. She was upset but I think she thought I was kidding - I wasn't - which she soon found out when she asked to go outside and I said no. She found out again when she asked me to take her shopping and I said no. And she really found out when we nixed the trip to the movie theater to watch Toy Story III. I don't think she will leave the yard again.

When does school start???

TTFN... Oh and she must have just jumped off that swing and sprinted through the back yards to make it to Clare's house in record time. Next time she tries to sneak out of the yard she better be more obvious about it.

Final curtain call...

2010-06-13T18:31:00.005-05:00

NO, that is not some veiled reference to the effect the rainy weather has been having on my psychie this weekend but a literal reference to the end of the 2009-2010 dance season. Man it seemed like it was a long time coming - good thing there are those cute costumes to keep mom's going :-) The girls performed Saturday evening, had a great time and did a great job. The grandpa and grandmas were in attendance as well as the HotY, Alex and I. The girls were happy to have a "full house". Here are a few shots from after the performances. I didn't get any of them in their ballet costumes as that was their first dance and we were a little rushed to get to the theater - like that's a surprise! As always you can click on the picture to get an enlarged view.

Oh and about that "near" disastrous accident we almost had a couple of weeks ago (sorry I kind of forgot I forgot to tell you the details)... The girls and I were on our way to do a little Saturday shopping and while on a busy road (in front of Walmart) I started to move into the turn lane in preparation for our turn onto the frontage road when the truck in the next lane cut over into our lane only inches away. I slammed on the brakes but was going fast enough that we went into a skid. I was sure we were going to make impact as I could see the chipped paint on the merging vehicle - seriously the truck was millimeters away. I swerved to try to avoid the impact - and somehow did! Although we slid down into a steep ditch. The truck stopped and we determined that no one was hurt and the vehicles were untouched but there was the dilemma of exiting the ditch - it was much too steep to simply drive out of and the traffic was heavy, so I made an executive decision and drove across the trail at the bottom of the ditch, maneuvered between the trees, jumped the curb and drove through the parking lot of a local business bordering the bike trail and exited onto the frontage road (by Walmart - I'm not saying anything in particular but you know - WALMART - is the area where this all happened - I'm just saying... :-))So it was a very scary experience. As soon as we settled at the bottom of the ditch the first thing I said was "we have a guardian angel" and the next thing "YOUR MOM IS AN AWESOME DRIVER". Actually the "what ifs of the situation get me more than the experience. The HotY pointed out that it is lucky the van didn't flip on the way into the ditch nor did we hit any of the multiple road signs along the way and most importantly, although we didn't quite make contact with the bike trail it was close and thankfully there was no one on that trail when we slid - for that I am very very very grateful. So there you go. It was close but all is well - thank you guardian angel :-)

TTFN...

WOW...

2010-06-06T19:09:00.004-05:00

that's is all I can say - WOW. We had a garage sale this weekend and although a HUGE success (really anytime you can come away with cash from junk that was just accumulating in your house and garage and attic it's a success) I am still reeling from the event. I've had garage sales before - I think the last garage sale was two years ago, maybe three. Regardless I've been there done that - but seriously, when did this whole garage sale barter system begin??? I looked at what I had to sell, considered what kind of condition it was in and how much I'd be willing to pay for it and then I marked the price. THE PRICE I WANTED TO SELL THE ITEM FOR. I did not mark the price with the intent of bargaining with the customer about how much I would actually take for the item - that price tag - THAT IS the price that I will actually take for the item. And believe me when I say I was a bitch about the entire thing. Not that I didn't make a couple of deals - but those that demanded deals - I'd rather get stuck with the item than to make a deal. I know I know (believe me I get this stubborn streak from my mother - blame her) but really it was ridiculous and next time I have a garage sale I'm marking everything $2.00 more than I actually want. I can play the game too... (yes, I know this is not an attractive side of my personality but I told you I was still reeling).

I am very glad to have the garage sale behind me (and my garage back and available for car parking) but I am not looking forward to this week. Tomorrow is the last real day of school for L & S. Tuesday is the last school mass followed by a reception for the departing principal and then schools out for summer. Although I love summer and the freedom that it brings I am not a fan of the last day of school because it means I'll cry and it won't be pretty. I tried to get out of attending mass on Tuesday because I know I will be a sobbing mess but the girls were devastated when I told them so I'll be there with my purse full of tissues.

Here is a picture of the girls on the first day of school:

Here is a picture which was taken a couple of weeks ago - they've grown:

And the crying, really how can I explain it? I've already stated my problems dealing with goodbyes and the last day of school is just one huge goodbye. I get all worked up about my kids passing milestones. Although I would never want them to not pass milestones it still means that they are growing up and away - one step closer to realizing that I am not the best thing since sliced bread. Oh My Gosh, I just had a terrible thought - what they heck am I going to do next year when Alex graduates from High School? How am I going to make it through that momentous event? I think I better start saving those Kleenex coupons.

TTFN... I have to run - I've got a High School graduation to worry about - in a year - but still...

Hold on, Hold on...

2010-06-01T21:33:00.007-05:00

I'm getting caught up. There has been so much going on with birthdays, spring concerts, end of the year picnics, garage sale prep and almost totalling my vehicle that I've gotten a little behind.

The girls celebrated their birthday last week. It was a three day celebration (isn't that the way birthday's are supposed to be). The actual day of their birthday was spent with the grandparents. Cake and presents were plentiful.

The "party" was on Saturday. We had 17 seven year olds meet at the movie theater to watch Shrek 4 and then walked to the pizza place in the vicinity for pizza, presents and cake. I still can't talk about it :-) In my mind these things always sound like such good ideas. Seriously, it wasn't too bad.

This picture is such a reflection of the girls - Lauren is all - what the heck - she is just too much and Syd is all about putting her best pose forward. She decked herself all out in "diamonds and pearls" and called it beautiful :-)

I'm still working on garage sale prep. June 4 & 5 are the big days. Man we have a lot of STUFF! And really if I was more organized and more ambitious I could still make another sweep of the house and find at least another day's worth of stuff. Trying to sort through what we have gathered has been an experience. Lauren is not interested in the process, Sydney wants to keep everything and Alex wants to get rid of everything. Really, as of tonight I'm still not sure what I'm selling and what I'm keeping. I've had too much "help" with the sorting.

Oh and about that car thing - I'll tell you more about that tomorrow. I'm still getting myself caught up in the "what if's".

TTFN... if you need kids clothes, girls' fancy dresses, toys or scrapbooking supplies - along with other miscellaneous items I know where you can find them...

And I thought Sheryl Crowe was annoying...

2010-05-27T09:54:00.003-05:00

with her chronic complaining about wanting to have some fun (remember – I wrote about it – HERE). NOW there is this song – YUCK. I hate this song. To be honest I’m not a fan of the Black Eyed Peas in any form – but this song – it can put me in a bad mood. I know, there are much more important things to put my energy into but sometimes you just have to get the little things off your chest. And this is one little thing that I would like to get off my chest, out of my radio listening area and into the graveyards of music. I can only hope the popularity of this annoying little tune is short-lived. Sorry to all you Black Eyed Peas but it’s a fact – they are even more annoying than Sheryl Crowe – and to be honest I’m not even that sorry. I just don’t like them. There I said it and I’m sticking by it. HA!

TTFN… I’m off to find a happy place – some place where only good songs play – some place called land of the iPod.

but... I'm feeling likeable today...

2010-05-19T22:03:00.006-05:00

People may not realize it but I am actually a glass half-full kind of person - about most things anyway - and just to prove it to those who may doubt I'm full of all kinds of like love today - really I am. Listen - here's the list of what I like - right now at this moment - seriously.

I like Finger Paints Finger Nail Polish. I happened upon it by accident. Syd actually wanted it so I bought it for her and then it was just setting there in the bathroom one morning so I tried it and I LOVE it. It dries fast and resists chips pretty well. I used to be a finger polish girl but then kids and no drying time entered my life and I sort of forgot how much I like polished fingernails. But I think it is time to remember.

I like Fingerzilla on the iPad. After I posted about this in the post where I talked about the iPad (which I have also decided I really like) I received a comment from Tom of Fingerzilla offering to send me to code to get Fingerzilla for the iPad. How cool is that? See the world is full of nice people and I really like that - and Fingerzilla. Doom and destruction with a tiny tap of the finger - really it's the little things that entertain me.

I like The Avett Brothers especially I and Love and You. Have you heard this song? Click the link - it's a little country but it's so good. I've been listening to it over and over.

I like thinking about the day my daughters were born as tonight is the eve of their 7th birthday. It was kind of a scary day and it wasn't supposed to be their birthday - it was supposed to be an ultrasound day - the birthday wasn't supposed to happen until July. BUT during that ultrasound the Chief OB guy decided I should have a couple of babies. I argued. I told the doctor on call in labor and delivery that I was going home. She called the Chief of OB (she was a tattle tale), who then came to my room and told me in no uncertain terms that no matter what I may have thought I WAS going to be having babies that day - hmmm guess he told me. He got over it but that doctor on-call - not so much. Really, it was an innocent mistake I thought I was being monitored I didn't think I was REALLY going to deliver. Who knew? Regardless by 7:30 that evening I had babies :-) Sweet, sweet baby girls. Sydney was 3lbs 8oz and Lauren was 4lbs 8oz.

I like summer. But I think I've been over this before. Anyone who knows me knows summer is when I truly shine. Sun, sun Mr. Golden Sun...

I like knowing when I've been self-indulgent enough and need to say good-bye.

So without further ado - TTFN... Tomorrow is birthday day. To say spirits were running high would be an understatement.